Parents caught me practicing partial hanging and im angry

[asian.neet]

im pretty privileged as i have loving parents but im angry that they caught me trying to ctb with partial hanging, well practicing for it.

idk why but it just seems that people love to guilt trip us by saying "think of your loved ones". it is peak manipulation and i wish people would just stop doing that especially my parents.

 

[Lam1dz]

im pretty privileged as i have loving parents but im angry that they caught me trying to ctb with partial hanging, well practicing for it.

idk why but it just seems that people love to guilt trip us by saying "think of your loved ones". it is peak manipulation and i wish people would just stop doing that especially my parents.

i am so sorry for that... i can understand it cuz my own did to mine is worst i Think cuz of the SI ...
i wish you the best and hope u'll find ur peace

 

[paintedbutterfly676]

Often we are thinking of our loved ones. Getting told that again and again just makes it hurt more

 

[AshH]

im pretty privileged as i have loving parents but im angry that they caught me trying to ctb with partial hanging, well practicing for it.

idk why but it just seems that people love to guilt trip us by saying "think of your loved ones". it is peak manipulation and i wish people would just stop doing that especially my parents.

How did they react?

 

[dreamscape1111]

Instead of asking Why is this happening to me? Ask, What is trying to show me?

Nothing happens by accident.

 

[asian.neet]

How did they react?

they basically have me on suicide watch at home and are thinking of sending me back into the psych ward.

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

That's rough buddy.

 

[asian.neet]

yeah i wish they would leave me the fuck alone.

 

[Stormy Raine]

Omg that's so embarrassing, I can't imagine I'm sure your parents are so confused, be careful you may get a visit from the police or mental health crisis soon

 

[asian.neet]

Omg that's so embarrassing, I can't imagine I'm sure your parents are so confused, be careful you may get a visit from the police or mental health crisis soon

yeah they did threaten calling the police

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really beyond cruel how people cannot just die in peace when they wish to. It disgusts me how many people refuse to accept the fact that nobody is obligated to continue existing and treat suicidal people like criminals as a result. But anyway that must be an awful situation to be in, I wish you the best.

 

[Stormy Raine]

Did the police come? I hope not

 

[asian.neet]

Did the police come? I hope not

thank god nope they didn't call them just empty threats

 

[HighFlight]

yeah i wish they would leave me the fuck alone.

They won't. You mentioned you have loving parents so I'm assuming they aren't your reason to ctb. (If this is a bad assumption, I'd be very interested in hearing more.) But this also means your safety and wellbeing is critically important to them. As a result, they will do what it takes to stop you, including extreme steps calling the police and involuntary hospitalization.

I don't know your circumstances or your relationship with your parents, but when things calm down, could you have a conversation with them about what is causing you to want to ctb? (not about ctb itself.) I realize this won't change their minds, but it could be beneficial in a couple of ways. They may be able to get you real help and move you towards recovery. Or when you do ctb, hopefully they will not blame themselves and maybe you can have some positive quality time with them not focused on ctb.

Again, only you can decide if this might be helpful in your circumstances.

My son came to me a few years back and told me he wanted to ctb but was too afraid. While I was crushed emotionally, I knew he needed help. I let him tell me what works for him, and I do my best to support him. I've dropped a few therapy hints, but haven't forced him. He's still at risk, but we've had some very good time since, and understand how he's feeling. (I would still be completely devastated if he did.)

Hopefully, you can have some patience and "train" your parents. If so, you might find it helpful for all of you.

I hope that you can eventually find some peace in all of this.