SchizophrenicFantasy
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- Aug 18, 2020
- 12
This is my first post here so I'll keep it short I'm paranoid schizophrenic.. Every day of my life as long as i can remember has been tormented by horrible delusions and hallucinations followed by the realization that I'm probably crazy.. My family has given up on me.. They told me that if I'm going to ctb to not get blood on everything as it never comes out after it's dry.. I'm so tired everyday i haven't worked in 3 weeks because I'm off my meds and having symptoms and i can't shake this depression I'm in.. I'm at peace with death. I know that I'm going to lose my house in two weeks and i already have my fiance going to her moms house when it happens with the youngest child and my other two older children will go to my parents. I will be completely alone and without anywhere to go. What do you all think I should do? I've waited 3 full weeks to make sure I'm absolutely positive i wanna die.. Nothing has changed and I'm still 100% at peace and ready to die. Not to mention the meds have stopped working. I'm ready to stop suffering so much I'm tired of being defined by my diagnoses by everyone, all i want is to move on forever.