BornofDust
Student
- Dec 11, 2020
- 132
I'm constantly scared that I'm gonna end up being confronted by people for the things I did because of what I did because of my general lack of social cues. Especially in recent events. I'm also afraid of any job opportunities being ruined because of my bad reputation from my previous job. I'm scared of someone confronting me about it and or spreading rumors about me. Making things harder for me as a result. Thats on the back of my mind constantly. I'm constantly trying to find ways to explain my actions as Truthfully as possible " just in case." with immediate responses. My reputations been smeared before. So I'm just trying to prepare just in case. I'm already known as mentally unstable so things are gonna get so much harder for me then it already is. Plus no one takes my words seriously anyway. Their word against mine. I'm constantly fearful of having to deal with this again. I'm so scared of going back to University on-campus after the lockdown oficiallly ends that I'm smeared for good. My whole family is against me and considers me an unsatble mentally ill and also evil and selfish freak because of a smear campaign. I can't even live with them because of this even though I despareately wanna move out. My community college experience got so horrible that I had to literally hide in a corner all day. Before I was fired I was known as the dude with issues.
Now I'm afraid of dealing with that ten-fold and being directly confronted to my face about it. Especially in terms of recent events. It plagues my mind on a daily basis. This paranoia about being confronted and smeared for who I am and my actions. These thoughts seem so irrational but I can't hep but feel that way.
Now I'm afraid of dealing with that ten-fold and being directly confronted to my face about it. Especially in terms of recent events. It plagues my mind on a daily basis. This paranoia about being confronted and smeared for who I am and my actions. These thoughts seem so irrational but I can't hep but feel that way.