Venting Paralyzing anxiety makes me want to ctb

[Imgonnadie]

Deadlines draw closer, and I am in bed. I don't want to deal with anything. Thinking about anything gives me anxiety. It never stops. No matter how hard I will myself to disappear I can't. Time marches mercilessly on.

I can't avoid my family who I feel uncomfortable around. Can't avoid fucking court first dealing with bullshit traffic tickets and now just got a jury duty summons set after my flight scheduled to leave the country. Can't avoid work/school obligation. Feel like I'm being slowly strangled.

 

[k75]

Im so sorry everything is hitting you so hard. I deal with crippling anxiety as well. It's hell.

Do you happen to have a therapist? If so, they can help you get out of the jury duty. The last time I got a summons, my therapist sent them a form saying I couldn't do it for mental health reasons, and it instantly got me waived for 3 years.