Overcoming SI?

[watashiwastar]

im extremely afraid of the pain before i CTB. i dont think i have much hope or care for life anymore, it feels like the only thing stopping me is the idea of going through so much physical pain. i can cut myself quite easily but im still scared because CTB will be more painful than anything ive ever endured. FYI i cant get a gun

 

[takuyablackbox]

i don't know if theres a way to truly overcome it i think at a certain point the pain of living just outbalances the fear of the pain of dying if that makes sense

 

[watashiwastar]

i don't know if theres a way to truly overcome it i think at a certain point the pain of living just outbalances the fear of the pain of dying if that makes sense

sounds unfortunate... i dont think i have truly experienced anything too painful in my life so the thought of it scares me. i dont think ive reached that point yet in life.

there have been some horrible days where i have just wanted to sleep but never wake up again, but it seems like the pain and the risk of survival is too much effort compared to living another day. for now