a_pine_tree
Member
- Jan 21, 2023
- 8
I planned my method (night night), quickly tested it with what I have (it seems to work, gets me feeling dizzy in a way i never feel). I have planned what I want my last meal to be, made my playlist I'll be listening to, know what I'll wear, know I'll do it in my bed with my plushies...
The only thing I'm missing is a date now. I don't want to die, but there's no way I'll keep living like this, and there is no solution that is good enough for me.
I don't want to do it too impulsively, so I guess I'm just waiting for the people I love to get bored of me so it'll hurt them less.
I can't stop crying lately, I spend all day lying in bed, waiting. Waiting for the guy I fell in love with to love me, waiting for my lifelong disabilities to stop, waiting for the pain to end. But it never happens. I'm exhausted.
The only thing I'm missing is a date now. I don't want to die, but there's no way I'll keep living like this, and there is no solution that is good enough for me.
I don't want to do it too impulsively, so I guess I'm just waiting for the people I love to get bored of me so it'll hurt them less.
I can't stop crying lately, I spend all day lying in bed, waiting. Waiting for the guy I fell in love with to love me, waiting for my lifelong disabilities to stop, waiting for the pain to end. But it never happens. I'm exhausted.