*Hope*
Student
- Jan 18, 2021
- 112
Haven't come outside for almost few months now and I feel my sanity is starting to deteriorate.
Each time I go out in public I'm reminded of something, something that has taken my happiness and confidence away. Everyone judges me for it, even if I have absolutely no control over it.
I have talked to some people about it (was forced to really), and just as I thought.. Not one person understood me. Instead they told me that it's all in my head and that it's my fault for thinking about it so much, yet me, and other people like me, are judged, mocked, disrespected and even hated every single day. It has even become a norm on the internet (somehow it's not considered bodyshaming, so it's acceptable to insult people like me). Worst part is, if I speak up then I'm quickly shut down and further ridiculed.
They say it's because I lack "confidence" and I need to "love myself", yet the next moment they mock me and make sure I'm reminded how repulsive I am..
Each year is getting worse and worse.
I feel like a living joke and there's no way I can get help.
PS. It's pretty obvious what my "repulsive trait" is.
Each time I go out in public I'm reminded of something, something that has taken my happiness and confidence away. Everyone judges me for it, even if I have absolutely no control over it.
I have talked to some people about it (was forced to really), and just as I thought.. Not one person understood me. Instead they told me that it's all in my head and that it's my fault for thinking about it so much, yet me, and other people like me, are judged, mocked, disrespected and even hated every single day. It has even become a norm on the internet (somehow it's not considered bodyshaming, so it's acceptable to insult people like me). Worst part is, if I speak up then I'm quickly shut down and further ridiculed.
They say it's because I lack "confidence" and I need to "love myself", yet the next moment they mock me and make sure I'm reminded how repulsive I am..
Each year is getting worse and worse.
I feel like a living joke and there's no way I can get help.
PS. It's pretty obvious what my "repulsive trait" is.