One week til I ctb

[LosinIt20]

My life has no meaning I'm so angry at myself! How can I be this much of nothing! How can I be so lonely to the point I have absolutely nobody. Lost my job can't get one due to this stupid virus. I'm nothing I can't even support myself anymore. These four walls closed in on me & im so ready to die!! Fuck life and everything it put me through ! Fuck am I praying for? Never gets answered. I have to sit here in my room again trying to kill time waiting for the next day to come just to do it all over again. Nobody even wants to talk to me on here...must be my fuckin aura. Oh well when I'm dead I won't feel shit anymore. I just wanna be happy one fuckin day. In Heaven cause I'm done with this earthly shit

 

[LMLN]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad, and so alone. We are here to listen when you need.
I've been struggling myself a lot, and I understand. I'm just focusing on getting through each day. My life is a nightmare...and I want out. Just have not felt ready to end it yet. It's torture.

 

[Steamm]

I feel your pain. I'm totaly lost aswell, I write that with tears in my eyes. Today I woke up full of courage to do what I have to do. I'm so sick of this, there's nothing left for me. And aparently no one gives a shit about me either

 

[yetme]

My life has no meaning I'm so angry at myself! How can I be this much of nothing! How can I be so lonely to the point I have absolutely nobody. Lost my job can't get one due to this stupid virus. I'm nothing I can't even support myself anymore. These four walls closed in on me & im so ready to die!! Fuck life and everything it put me through ! Fuck am I praying for? Never gets answered. I have to sit here in my room again trying to kill time waiting for the next day to come just to do it all over again. Nobody even wants to talk to me on here...must be my fuckin aura. Oh well when I'm dead I won't feel shit anymore. I just wanna be happy one fuckin day. In Heaven cause I'm done with this earthly shit

feel free to PM me if you need to chat

 

[MrOptions]

Vent away people here are always willing to talk. Try the chat room. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/chat/

 

[Sensei]

LosinIt20, that's a harrowing situation. I empathize with you. When you say that you have nobody, does that mean that you have no parents, siblings, or cousins either?

To be honest, I'm not exactly the best option you have here, but if you don't find anyone else you feel comfortable PM'ing with, my inbox is always open.

 

[LosinIt20]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad, and so alone. We are here to listen when you need.
I've been struggling myself a lot, and I understand. I'm just focusing on getting through each day. My life is a nightmare...and I want out. Just have not felt ready to end it yet. It's torture.

Why does life have to be this hard ? Smh I wish I knew ..thank you guys This is the only place I feel comfortable being open and communicating. Nobody understands

 

[LMLN]

Life is not easy. I'm sorry you are struggling. We understand here

 

[LosinIt20]

LosinIt20, that's a harrowing situation. I empathize with you. When you say that you have nobody, does that mean that you have no parents, siblings, or cousins either?

To be honest, I'm not exactly the best option you have here, but if you don't find anyone else you feel comfortable PM'ing with, my inbox is always open.

My parents abandoned me 12 years ago, well me and my older sister, my mom hates me genuinely for reasons I have no control over, same for my dad and it's a weird situation but my younger siblings got brainwashed by my mom so they hate me too. I've been molested by family members, and the other ones just completely forgot I even exist. I guess I could say I'm the black sheep. But now I'm gonna be a dead sheep cause fuck this lol

I feel your pain. I'm totaly lost aswell, I write that with tears in my eyes. Today I woke up full of courage to do what I have to do. I'm so sick of this, there's nothing left for me. And aparently no one gives a shit about me either

Please pm me I care

 

[LonelySoul]

Isn't life ironic that we all know feelings of abandonment, emotional loss, loneliness and feeling nobody cares about us. Yet, there are people here amongst us all who can reach out to the lost and lonely souls, because we all know how that feels. I am sorry you have been dealt a shit hand in life and your parents abandoned you. Shame we cant all have a real-life group hug.

 

[Sensei]

My parents abandoned me 12 years ago, well me and my older sister, my mom hates me genuinely for reasons I have no control over, same for my dad and it's a weird situation but my younger siblings got brainwashed by my mom so they hate me too. I've been molested by family members, and the other ones just completely forgot I even exist. I guess I could say I'm the black sheep. But now I'm gonna be a dead sheep cause fuck this lol

Well, there are no other words to describe this: it's outright terrible. When it comes to family matters like these, it's my experience that time really heals all wounds, but that's obviously of little help to you right now. Is there no one else? If the answer is no, is there any way to find someone else?

 

[4eyebiped]

I am going to tell you guys a secret. I know the internet isn't the best place to share a secret but I feel I need to let it out and I feel I can trust each and every one of you. My secret is...

I think you are all wonderful! While we are all broken in our own way, when together here on this forum, all our broken pieces fit together like the pieces to a well crafted large puzzle. When all connected we create a work of beauty and awe.

 

[All an illusion]

Please be well...i feel the same exact way most of the time...i hope nothing but peace and love for you.