Story one more day ...

[Mgl91]

Sorry for my bad English.


I don't spend a day without feeling empty, angry and sad. I feel my body tired my head does not give more ... I arrived here looking for a way to die at home, I am of low resources I only have propane and sleep once with the open container and it did not work ... I know that I will soon try to do it with The bag on the head. I'm just looking for a better way to do it every day ... I don't feel like living my life anymore, it sums up working and then being sad at home and thinking about a way to die.

 

[Iloveyouall]

Do you mind if I ask you since when you feel that way ?

Your English is not bad.

 

[Mgl91]

Do you mind if I ask you since when you feel that way ?

Your English is not bad.

3 years ago I struggle with my depression. I just pretend to be well at work or in front of a relative. it is increasingly difficult to pretend and each time I feel worse ... without a doubt the emotional pain is worse than the physical one and there is nothing to calm it

 

[Iloveyouall]

Have you ever talked to one of your relative about how you feel ?

 

[Mgl91]

Have you ever talked to one of your relative about how you feel ?

Yes, and I only see how they feel sorry for me ...

 

[Iloveyouall]

In your first post you said you were angry, what are you angry about ?

I hope you don't mind me asking questions about you. You said you pretend being ok in front of people, I imagine it can be hard then to open up.

 

[Mgl91]

In your first post you said you were angry, what are you angry about ?

I hope you don't mind me asking questions about you. You said you pretend being ok in front of people, I imagine it can be hard then to open up.

I went through several things in my life. I got to the point of letting them humiliate me. I always became deaf and blind before many things to live and raise my children that my reason for living took it long ago. I already tried everything to have them with me legal talk everything. I don't want him to fall for the easy answer, think about your children. I came here for them but no longer just spying on a cashier they almost didn't let me see them I just wanted to rest from all this shit from everything that always kept me during my life from everything that blocked my head all that was released and it doesn't let me live

 

[Iloveyouall]

What is the reason they don't let you see your children ?

 

[Mgl91]

What is the reason they don't let you see your children ?

It's something so sad. I will tell you in summary. It is only a small part of the whole. God every time I remember this, I only cry. the third time my wife cheats on me, I can't stand it and throw her out by telling her to leave the children, that they would stay with me. laan her things to the street to what she denounces me for gender violence here in my country such a complaint they always win. in short I was like the bad person and my children took the only thing that really made me get up every day my reason for living took her and I spent a while trying to move on but no longer I do not want every day that I feel worse

 

[Iloveyouall]

I'm sorry, I did not want to make you cry. I can imagine how angry you feel so much it's unfair. Have you tried to see them without the consent of their mother ? I'm not encouraging you to do so as it may be illegal but as you're saying you have nothing to lose anymore I was wondering.

 

[Mgl91]

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I'm sorry, I did not want to make you cry. I can imagine how angry you feel so much it's unfair. Have you tried to see them without the consent of their mother ? I'm not encouraging you to do so as it may be illegal but as you're saying you have nothing to lose anymore I was wondering.

I can not ...

 

[Iloveyouall]

You are very brave and strong for having endured all that for your children. You could use that force to go up against the people who humiliate you maybe.
What else happened ? You said you had physical pain, would you mind tell us more ? You can let it go all out here if you feel comfortable with it.

 

[Mgl91]

You are very brave and strong for having endured all that for your children. You could use that force to go up against the people who humiliate you maybe.
What else happened ? You said you had physical pain, would you mind tell us more ? You can let it go all out here if you feel comfortable with it.

I feel tired, my body hurts I feel my body heavy shoulders. sleep a little or a lot I'm always exhausted

 

[Iloveyouall]

Yeah I can imagine that you feel crushed like that. Do you mind if I ask you how old are your kids ?

 

[Mgl91]

Yeah I can imagine that you feel crushed like that. Do you mind if I ask you how old are your kids ?

4 and 5 years

 

[Iloveyouall]

I'm no seer but I can see the image of you guys reunited when they'd have grow up, at least I wish it'll be. I don't want to give you false hope and just tell you that everything is going to be ok. I can barely imagine how you're suffering, you've been through so much already. I'm wondering about the humiliations you said you're experiencing because of other people, would you mind talking about it and about other stuff you've been through ?

 

[Mgl91]

I'm no seer but I can see the image of you guys reunited when they'd have grow up, at least I wish it'll be. I don't want to give you false hope and just tell you that everything is going to be ok. I can barely imagine how you're suffering, you've been through so much already. I'm wondering about the humiliations you said you're experiencing because of other people, would you mind talking about it and about other stuff you've been through ?

Uff is something that I keep for me are so many things, I can only tell you that I was humiliated to the point of being on my knees crying and that he is laughing at me ... that made me think that I imagined things to the point of thinking that I was crazy and discover that everything was true and correct as I thought. Say the phrase think badly and you will do. I would like you to help me do NN I will practice it next week when I have my days off at work ...

 

[Iloveyouall]

It seems like this is coming out of a nightmare. I know it won't help and sound dull but knowing you went through such things make me feel so sad for you.
I'm sorry but I'm not going to help you NN. I don't even know what the NN method is actually. If you feel and know deep inside yourself that there is no other way for you to find peace then I wish you to find it, with a painless method.