one more day

[gothfairy]

i have loads of homework and i just came to the realization that it makes no sense to do it because i'll be gone before it will matter that i haven't done it. i could ctb tonight but tomorrow is my friend's art show and i don't want her to find out about my death and not be able to present her art. also i feel like it would be a nice last day of mine to skip class, go to her art show, and then spend some time with her and another friend afterwards. i think i'm sticking to the plan of ctb on the 17th, friday.

 

[Green Destiny]

Do whatever makes you fell better, even if it's only for a little while.

 

[shadowchaser]

Hey, I'm sorry it's come to this. Any reason specifically you want to ctb or have planned it for the 17th? It sounds like a nice last day you're thinking of; is it possible in any way you could stay for more nice days like that one?

 

[Zoltiel]

I don't know you but you are so young. Please give it some more time.

 

[issyishere]

I don't know you but you are so young. Please give it some more time.

I second this. I respect people's choices but you're so young and that makes me sad to see you go is there any possibility things can get better?

 

[gothfairy]

I second this. I respect people's choices but you're so young and that makes me sad to see you go is there any possibility things can get better?

i have felt this way since i was 11. i don't have hope for that anymore

 

[Jean4]

i have felt this way since i was 11. i don't have hope for that anymore

Have you tried to get help?

 

[gothfairy]

Have you tried to get help?

yes, i have been in therapy since it started getting bad and i've been to residential mental health treatment twice and i'm on an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer

 

[Jean4]

yes, i have been in therapy since it started getting bad and i've been to residential mental health treatment twice and i'm on an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer

I don't know your diagnosis, but if you are Bipolar, have you tried Lithium?

 

[gothfairy]

I don't know your diagnosis, but if you are Bipolar, have you tried Lithium?

i'm not bipolar but i'm on 900 mg of lithium and it helped for a long time but it has stopped working

 

[Nem]

Sorry to hear this and I can understand completely
Peace/hugs