wordsonscreen
Peanuts aren't nuts! They're seeds!
- Jan 21, 2021
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Hello from the land of sunbug :p I hope today is going okay for you.
I know we feel quite misunderstood and isolated. I've been reading a lot of threads about how people shut out their friends because they dont get it. I did the same. Most people cannot really understand suicidality and all the factors that bring us here for whatever reason. I still have one friend and I want to share how I managed to maintain that relationship despite being in the hell I am in.
I cannot bear it when people try to "fix" me or "change" me. I like to make my own decisions. Everyone wanted to fix me and help me, of course. I told one friend to stop. And he did!! Now I can just tell him things and feel loved and supported without him trying to give me hope or make me feel better. I told him "you can ask me how I am once every 12 hours and please stop trying to cheer me up or saying hyperpositive stuff to make me better. I do not want that. It does not help and makes me feel worse and more alone. I do not want to be saved." I had to be very very very clear and not budge. It has been nice to have one person to still connect with who can listen without trying to make me feel wrong or sick.
I've also learned to ask directly what I want. So for example, instead of "I'm feeling like a burden" or "I dont want to bother you"- asking "am I bothering you? can you reassure me?" Its so much easier to connect when I am able to say things clearly. It doesnt mean everyone will receive it well or respect our wishes. But it is our job to communicate clearly and give the other person a chance to fail :p Asking for what we want is pretty hard but it may be worth it.
Have you tried telling people exactly what you want? Has it worked? Are you able to be honest with people in your life?
I know we feel quite misunderstood and isolated. I've been reading a lot of threads about how people shut out their friends because they dont get it. I did the same. Most people cannot really understand suicidality and all the factors that bring us here for whatever reason. I still have one friend and I want to share how I managed to maintain that relationship despite being in the hell I am in.
I cannot bear it when people try to "fix" me or "change" me. I like to make my own decisions. Everyone wanted to fix me and help me, of course. I told one friend to stop. And he did!! Now I can just tell him things and feel loved and supported without him trying to give me hope or make me feel better. I told him "you can ask me how I am once every 12 hours and please stop trying to cheer me up or saying hyperpositive stuff to make me better. I do not want that. It does not help and makes me feel worse and more alone. I do not want to be saved." I had to be very very very clear and not budge. It has been nice to have one person to still connect with who can listen without trying to make me feel wrong or sick.
I've also learned to ask directly what I want. So for example, instead of "I'm feeling like a burden" or "I dont want to bother you"- asking "am I bothering you? can you reassure me?" Its so much easier to connect when I am able to say things clearly. It doesnt mean everyone will receive it well or respect our wishes. But it is our job to communicate clearly and give the other person a chance to fail :p Asking for what we want is pretty hard but it may be worth it.
Have you tried telling people exactly what you want? Has it worked? Are you able to be honest with people in your life?
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