MiMif
I do not live for others to understand me...
- Sep 13, 2023
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I was wondering about if I really wanted to die or not. So I decided to try to evaluate my life and what I had to love for and what made me happy. I couldn't really think of anything so I called my older sister and asked her what made her happy.
She gave me vague answers but what made me asking her that bad was because when I was in highschool (she was in college) I sent her pictures of my cuts from cutting myself and vented to her. I asked her not ot bring it up again because I wouldn't know how to talk to her and she didn't ection it to me just like she said.
Now I think asking her mightve made her worry I was crying and I felt my voice was going to Crack so I quickly hung up but she sounded worried.
All I do is burden others with my burdens and I feel like a bitch. She was eating pizza when I called her I hope I didn't spoil her appetite
oh also question. I ended up cutting myself after the call and its bleeding mlre then usual probably cut deeper then usual. I wa just wondering how deep a cut has to be to scar. Cause I don't really want scars that are noticeable cause I don't want anyone to see. Like I cut my wrist before and I have a few scars that I'm pretty sure won't go away cause they've been there for a few years now. I now only really cut my thighs cause it's less conspicuous and my thighs have a lot of scars...which makes it hard to wear shorts. How deep do I cut to not scar too bad?
She gave me vague answers but what made me asking her that bad was because when I was in highschool (she was in college) I sent her pictures of my cuts from cutting myself and vented to her. I asked her not ot bring it up again because I wouldn't know how to talk to her and she didn't ection it to me just like she said.
Now I think asking her mightve made her worry I was crying and I felt my voice was going to Crack so I quickly hung up but she sounded worried.
All I do is burden others with my burdens and I feel like a bitch. She was eating pizza when I called her I hope I didn't spoil her appetite
oh also question. I ended up cutting myself after the call and its bleeding mlre then usual probably cut deeper then usual. I wa just wondering how deep a cut has to be to scar. Cause I don't really want scars that are noticeable cause I don't want anyone to see. Like I cut my wrist before and I have a few scars that I'm pretty sure won't go away cause they've been there for a few years now. I now only really cut my thighs cause it's less conspicuous and my thighs have a lot of scars...which makes it hard to wear shorts. How deep do I cut to not scar too bad?
