Discussion Older people of this forum, at what age did you start to see a decline in your physical health?

[ClownMe]

We mainly only talk about our mental health on here, but i havent seen too much about physical health.

My plan at the moment is to ctb after my dog dies, although that isnt completely set in stone, it is possible for things to turn around (pretty unlikely but not impossible) and if they do i might live on a little bit longer, im just thinking about how much longer i would want to live on if that scenario were to arise. Im currently 20 years old, ive always worked fast pace, manual labor jobs because no matter how hard i try i cant score an office job, id say im relatively healthy for my age, despite the fact that im slightly overweight and havent done a full on work out in a few years now.

What im hoping to get is some guidance from some older people on here, you dont necessarily have to be elderly, but somewhere upwards from your mid 30's (preferably). I want to know when you started (if you have started) to feel a real decline in your physical health, by that i mean, you dont really feel like you did when you were younger, you cant do things you did when you were younger, you get tired easily, aches and pains etc etc.

I get pains from time to time but theyre mostly after I get home from work, its not too bad but I already feel so different to when i was in my teen years (if that makes sense) and it does scare me a bit.

What are your experiences?

 

[TooConscious]

Not sure you want my answer but I was 25 when things really started going downhill as in "I can't do this anymore" bloodworm going haywire, sharp pains, aching joints, old injuries throbbing, seizures, poor sleep, poor bowel habits, reflux, nausea, regular sickness and diarrhoea, chest infections. Eyesight worsening, hearing worsening, breathing difficulties, diabetes complications, cholesterol complications. Ligament/tendon strains, arthritis. Autoimmune diseases.

This is all because of being unlucky genetically and born to parents who didn't know how to care for a child, my mother broke my leg when I was 9 months old to stop my father from leaving her, she used to feed me cheese spread sandwiches tell people I was her spoilt boy whilst pocketing benefits and my dad's wages to live a cushy life draining my energy like the vampire she is.

I am not a common case but there are alot of others like me who deteriorated early mostly abuse victims because these people suck the life energy (whatever name you call it) out of people.

I reckon these days most people can sustain healthy lives (few stresses) into their 60's especially with money because of all the HRT And HGH therapies
Stem cell and all that. Plus if you have a brain or can pay someone to show you there is a way of working round pollution and you can live clean.
On average I would say 50 for this evil narcissistic species.

 

[ClownMe]

Not sure you want my answer but I was 25 when things really started going downhill as in "I can't do this anymore" bloodworm going haywire, sharp pains, aching joints, old injuries throbbing, seizures, poor sleep, poor bowel habits, reflux, nausea, regular sickness and diarrhoea, chest infections. Eyesight worsening, hearing worsening, breathing difficulties, diabetes complications, cholesterol complications. Ligament/tendon strains, arthritis. Autoimmune diseases.

This is all because of being unlucky genetically and born to parents who didn't know how to care for a child, my mother broke my leg when I was 9 months old to stop my father from leaving her, she used to feed me cheese spread sandwiches tell people I was her spoilt boy whilst pocketing benefits and my dad's wages to live a cushy life draining my energy like the vampire she is.

I am not a common case but there are alot of others like me who deteriorated early mostly abuse victims because these people suck the life energy (whatever name you call it) out of people.

I reckon these days most people can sustain healthy lives (few stresses) into their 60's especially with money because of all the HRT And HGH therapies
Stem cell and all that. Plus if you have a brain or can pay someone to show you there is a way of working round pollution and you can live clean.
On average I would say 50 for this evil narcissistic species.

Thanks for your answer, it was very eye opening, i had no idea that could happen to someone so "young". I dont plan on living into my 50's, i would be surprised if i made it to my 40's (if i decided to live on a bit longer). Life already seems really boring and i could only imagine it would get even more boring as you grow older.

If it makes you feel any better, I also have narcassistic parents, it sucks.

 

[GarageKarate07]

If you do not ever take up smoking or drinking, if you stop eating garbage like energy drinks and alcohol and meat and dairy and fast food and junk food, if you keep your sugar intake low including bread rice and potatoes, if you try to keep a whole food alkaline diet and at least minimal excercise, you will not feel anything even at 50 or older. Keep your back in shape and work on your core just a little to stay strong and build and keep posture. If you do not do those things you go downhill before you know it. Basically if there is a comercial for that food, dont eat it!! My conditions are chronic and from lack of healthy habits. Brain fog, bad back, infected blood are my biggest problems. Also psycosis. Getting old isnt the problem its how well you treat your body and it takes self disciplined research to do that. The tv will not tell you what is healthy.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm 33.

At my 30s, I finally confirmed that the "30s crisis" was real.
You get fatter easily, you get tired easily, you start having some small random health problems such as stomachaches and constant headaches, finding love becomes more difficult, people start calling you "sir" and that (at least to me) hurts you a lot mentally.

Damn, I can't believe I managed to be in this world for so long!

 

[ClownMe]

I'm 33.

At my 30s, I finally confirmed that the "30s crisis" was real.
You get fatter easily, you get tired easily, you start having some small random health problems such as stomachaches and constant headaches, finding love becomes more difficult, people start calling you "sir" and that (at least to me) hurts you a lot mentally.

Damn, I can't believe I managed to be in this world for so long!

Getting really big scares me. One of my grandparents got big in his early 50's and he had two really bad heart attacks a few years back because of it, he was a pretty awful person but i still kind of felt sorry for him. It really enforced the fact that i never wanted to live that long, old age and potentially dying from something like a heart attack seems a horrible way to go out. Im actually shocked at how early the "getting fat easily" effect kicks in, i always thought it would be around the early 40's. Quite scary.

As a bonus, the great irony of my family tree seems to be that we have an insane genetic make up, for example the grandparent i mentioned above is still alive despite his health issues and i think he turns 80 next year, the problem is depression runs in my family from what ive seen and experienced first hand, he is as miserable as i am (which is saying something). The world is weird, why (if there is some god or greater being), would they give my family an out of this world genetic makeup? We dont even enjoy life .

 

[Goodbye710]

At 40

 

[Symbiote]

I haven't had any major physical health scares other than the SN attempt, just inconveniences like chronic sinusitis due to tooth infection, post-concussion syndrome, and mild facial paralysis. Had them since I was a kid.

 

[Mentalmick]

Probably in my 20's when my martial arts overtraining caught up with me.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Around the age of 40yrs l noticed that I was putting on a bit of weight(Getting a bit of a belly) so l got a Rowing machine and a exercise bike and went mad on them and started taking my doggy for a extra walk every afternoon (Much to his delight)! After 3 months my belly was flat again but l have to keep up the routine or the old belly will return! (NOT HAPPENING)!

 

[Trojan]

I'm 76 and have been going steadily downhill for some time. I will ctb when I can no longer take care of myself.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Not sure you want my answer but I was 25 when things really started going downhill as in "I can't do this anymore" bloodworm going haywire, sharp pains, aching joints, old injuries throbbing, seizures, poor sleep, poor bowel habits, reflux, nausea, regular sickness and diarrhoea, chest infections. Eyesight worsening, hearing worsening, breathing difficulties, diabetes complications, cholesterol complications. Ligament/tendon strains, arthritis. Autoimmune diseases.

This is all because of being unlucky genetically and born to parents who didn't know how to care for a child, my mother broke my leg when I was 9 months old to stop my father from leaving her, she used to feed me cheese spread sandwiches tell people I was her spoilt boy whilst pocketing benefits and my dad's wages to live a cushy life draining my energy like the vampire she is.

I am not a common case but there are alot of others like me who deteriorated early mostly abuse victims because these people suck the life energy (whatever name you call it) out of people.

I reckon these days most people can sustain healthy lives (few stresses) into their 60's especially with money because of all the HRT And HGH therapies
Stem cell and all that. Plus if you have a brain or can pay someone to show you there is a way of working round pollution and you can live clean.
On average I would say 50 for this evil narcissistic species.

Minus only a couple conditions/issues, I could have written that first paragraph myself. I was never a robust, truly healthy person EVER (even as a child) but my health rapidly declined in my mid-20s and has continued to worsen as I've aged. I'm 53.

I too feel I'm not a 'usual' case of age-related declining health though, but rather I just had bad luck of the draw in genetics and that has been the main reason my health is so poor (now, and all my life). And I do know a significant number of people my age who besides having a few aches and pains if they overdo it or get tired a bit more easily than they did 30 years ago, are still in GREAT physical shape and still enjoy and live life almost just as they did in their younger years. And with medicine and science advancements, I'm sure that will only become more the norm. At least I hope so.

If you do not ever take up smoking or drinking, if you stop eating garbage like energy drinks and alcohol and meat and dairy and fast food and junk food, if you keep your sugar intake low including bread rice and potatoes, if you try to keep a whole food alkaline diet and at least minimal excercise, you will not feel anything even at 50 or older. Keep your back in shape and work on your core just a little to stay strong and build and keep posture. If you do not do those things you go downhill before you know it. Basically if there is a comercial for that food, dont eat it!! My conditions are chronic and from lack of healthy habits. Brain fog, bad back, infected blood are my biggest problems. Also psycosis. Getting old isnt the problem its how well you treat your body and it takes self disciplined research to do that. The tv will not tell you what is healthy.

Just wanted to echo how important it is to make sure you keep your back and core as strong as you can - it's VERY important, as I've learned over these last 20+ years of lack of exercise due to my health. When I stand for more than 20 min/half an hour, my back is screaming. Posture, as GarageKarate07 stated is also equally important...I've learned that the hard way as well. To the OP, you are young still and can really still take control (as much as anyone is able to) of where your health in the future will lead and so many of the things mentioned in this thread are excellent advice to follow. And lastly, I agree: eat clean, unprocessed food and don't drink or smoke. You up your chances of living and feeling well far into your older years by doing those things. I wish you ALWAYS good health. <3

 

[TooConscious]

Minus only a couple conditions/issues, I could have written that first paragraph myself. I was never a robust, truly healthy person EVER (even as a child) but my health rapidly declined in my mid-20s and has continued to worsen as I've aged. I'm 53.

I too feel I'm not a 'usual' case of age-related declining health though, but rather I just had bad luck of the draw in genetics and that has been the main reason my health is so poor (now, and all my life). And I do know a significant number of people my age who besides having a few aches and pains if they overdo it or get tired a bit more easily than they did 30 years ago, are still in GREAT physical shape and still enjoy and live life almost just as they did in their younger years. And with medicine and science advancements, I'm sure that will only become more the norm. At least I hope so.

Just wanted to echo how important it is to make sure you keep your back and core as strong as you can - it's VERY important, as I've learned over these last 20+ years of lack of exercise due to my health. When I stand for more than 20 min/half an hour, my back is screaming. Posture, as GarageKarate07 stated is also equally important...I've learned that the hard way as well. To the OP, you are young still and can really still take control (as much as anyone is able to) of where your health in the future will lead and so many of the things mentioned in this thread are excellent advice to follow. And lastly, I agree: eat clean, unprocessed food and don't drink or smoke. You up your chances of living and feeling well far into your older years by doing those things. I wish you ALWAYS good health. <3

Yes there's all sorts now like stem cell if you have money your laughing really.
Human growth hormone is being used by 20% of 20-60 year old, most who take it don't tell anyone because they love the compliments and attention as if they have achieved something which they have i guess but everyone likes feeling they have a secret advantage over others so when people are telling them they have such a great shaped face they don't say "well the HGH I'm on depletes the fat pouches and maximezes calcium transportation to the facial bones, it also tightens up my skin and all the little ligaments and tendons"
Shake that persons hand if you ever hear that.
G. Argh I hate this corrupt world

 

[Thanatonaut]

While we're on the subject of self-care, everyone and I mean EVERYONE should be taking some form of fiber, preferably psyllium husk like Metamucil. After about 2 weeks, you'll be dropping deuces like a Greek god. Wiping with toilet paper is just a habit, to make sure nothing is there. And there are tons of other benefits as well, even to your blood sugar and cholesterol. On top of everything else, you just feel lighter and have more energy with better appetite control. It changed my life, and everyone I've put on it turns around and puts their friends on it.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

If you do not ever take up smoking or drinking, if you stop eating garbage like energy drinks and alcohol and meat and dairy and fast food and junk food, if you keep your sugar intake low including bread rice and potatoes, if you try to keep a whole food alkaline diet and at least minimal excercise, you will not feel anything even at 50 or older. Keep your back in shape and work on your core just a little to stay strong and build and keep posture. If you do not do those things you go downhill before you know it. Basically if there is a comercial for that food, dont eat it!! My conditions are chronic and from lack of healthy habits. Brain fog, bad back, infected blood are my biggest problems. Also psycosis. Getting old isnt the problem its how well you treat your body and it takes self disciplined research to do that. The tv will not tell you what is healthy.

Meat and Dairy are Not Garbage, Farmer's work extremely hard long hour's to provide the nation with those foodstuffs,and as l grew up on a farm for someone to come along and say Meat and Dairy is Garbage seriously pisses me off!!!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

people start calling you "sir"

I hate when people do that!

 

[eternalmelancholy]

While we're on the subject of self-care, everyone and I mean EVERYONE should be taking some form of fiber, preferably psyllium husk like Metamucil. After about 2 weeks, you'll be dropping deuces like a Greek god. Wiping with toilet paper is just a habit, to make sure nothing is there. And there are tons of other benefits as well, even to your blood sugar and cholesterol. On top of everything else, you just feel lighter and have more energy with better appetite control. It changed my life, and everyone I've put on it turns around and puts their friends on it.

That's why I drink coffee. Good poops and good focus.

 

[faex42]

I was diagnosed with cancer of the larynx in 2010 but it was at a low stage and relatively easy to treat. Three years ago I was 65 and they began to schedule me for tests "for people my age". I knew ugly things were on the horizon. In 2019 the cancer jumped up to Stage III. I was in the hospital and rehab from March to June of 2020 right during the first Covid surge. They kept moving me from unit to unit because the hospital staff were aware of which patients and staff had acquired Covid and were trying to protect me. Cetainly declining health and age makes me think about taking matters into my own hands. My mother died of Covid when I was locked down in rehab. She had been the one reason I was never ready to CTB .
Fear of even more health problems contribute to my depression
But I fear homelessness and poverty more than anything else. Whenever I am close to the edge financially CTB planning becomes a serious matter.
The first time I had a viable plan with very serious depression was age 40. It seems that I return to SS whenever I fear economic destitution. That's
why I'm here now.
I'm not going to survive being homeless. I don't want to survive it. I'd have to have bad new medically before it would be the overiding factor.

 

[western_heart]

I'm 33 and my chronic health issues started when I was 31. I drank and used stimulants a lot throughout my 20s and now I have gastroparesis (delayed stomach emptying) which makes it hard for me to eat enough food to maintain a healthy weight.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

If you do not ever take up smoking or drinking, if you stop eating garbage like energy drinks and alcohol and meat and dairy and fast food and junk food, if you keep your sugar intake low including bread rice and potatoes, if you try to keep a whole food alkaline diet and at least minimal excercise, you will not feel anything even at 50 or older. Keep your back in shape and work on your core just a little to stay strong and build and keep posture. If you do not do those things you go downhill before you know it. Basically if there is a comercial for that food, dont eat it!! My conditions are chronic and from lack of healthy habits. Brain fog, bad back, infected blood are my biggest problems. Also psycosis. Getting old isnt the problem its how well you treat your body and it takes self disciplined research to do that. The tv will not tell you what is healthy.

Meat and dairy are not Garbage!

Not sure you want my answer but I was 25 when things really started going downhill as in "I can't do this anymore" bloodworm going haywire, sharp pains, aching joints, old injuries throbbing, seizures, poor sleep, poor bowel habits, reflux, nausea, regular sickness and diarrhoea, chest infections. Eyesight worsening, hearing worsening, breathing difficulties, diabetes complications, cholesterol complications. Ligament/tendon strains, arthritis. Autoimmune diseases.

This is all because of being unlucky genetically and born to parents who didn't know how to care for a child, my mother broke my leg when I was 9 months old to stop my father from leaving her, she used to feed me cheese spread sandwiches tell people I was her spoilt boy whilst pocketing benefits and my dad's wages to live a cushy life draining my energy like the vampire she is.

I am not a common case but there are alot of others like me who deteriorated early mostly abuse victims because these people suck the life energy (whatever name you call it) out of people.

I reckon these days most people can sustain healthy lives (few stresses) into their 60's especially with money because of all the HRT And HGH therapies
Stem cell and all that. Plus if you have a brain or can pay someone to show you there is a way of working round pollution and you can live clean.
On average I would say 50 for this evil narcissistic species.

is the phrase your looking for 'Lifeforce' ?

 

[NormaJeane]

I started to see decline in my physical health 6 - 7 years ago, health problems which only will get worse the older I get.

 

[WFJ74]

I would say early 40s for me. A lot of fatigue, stomach issues, trouble sleeping/staying asleep.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Not sure you want my answer but I was 25 when things really started going downhill as in "I can't do this anymore" bloodworm going haywire, sharp pains, aching joints, old injuries throbbing, seizures, poor sleep, poor bowel habits, reflux, nausea, regular sickness and diarrhoea, chest infections. Eyesight worsening, hearing worsening, breathing difficulties, diabetes complications, cholesterol complications. Ligament/tendon strains, arthritis. Autoimmune diseases.

This is all because of being unlucky genetically and born to parents who didn't know how to care for a child, my mother broke my leg when I was 9 months old to stop my father from leaving her, she used to feed me cheese spread sandwiches tell people I was her spoilt boy whilst pocketing benefits and my dad's wages to live a cushy life draining my energy like the vampire she is.

I am not a common case but there are alot of others like me who deteriorated early mostly abuse victims because these people suck the life energy (whatever name you call it) out of people.

I reckon these days most people can sustain healthy lives (few stresses) into their 60's especially with money because of all the HRT And HGH therapies
Stem cell and all that. Plus if you have a brain or can pay someone to show you there is a way of working round pollution and you can live clean.
On average I would say 50 for this evil narcissistic species.

Wow, your story is so similar to mine, right down to the abusive family members and genetics gone awry.

My answer probably won't instill any hope either, if anything, it's further proof of the utter randomness and luck of the draw one experiences in the life roulette.

I got sick with chronic fatigue when I was 17, after a couple of viral infections. My immune system was very poor, and I had several vitamin deficiencies at this time. Doctors gaslit me for years and told me I was depressed, until the symptoms were too glaring to ignore. Now my issues are permanent, as it's been nearly 5 years and I haven't recovered at all, only continously deteriorated.

My mother had chronic fatigue syndrome too, and was too ill to raise me growing up, so I've spent an entire lifetime without a mother, because she chose to have kids she couldn't take care of. Autoimmune diseases, brittle bones, autism and other developmental disabilities, cancer, etc all run in my family, yet no one in my bloodline spared a thought about whether or not it was a good idea to gamble with bringing another child into this world who could suffer from these conditions.

Over the years, I've had to watch my peers experience the peaks of their lives. Most people my age are in their prime. They are the healthiest and the most invigorated that they will ever be.

For most people in their early 20s, doing chores, walking to the shop, and standing up for long periods of time is no bother. They can stay up all night, drink like fishes, eat whatever they like, dance in clubs till the next morning, pass out wake up and do it again with no consequences.

Meanwhile, here I am. Chronic fatigue, chronic pain all over my body, autism, ptsd, tmj, horrible eyesight, many allergies, ibs and constant digestive problems, tinnitus, the list of problems continues to stack up as the days go by. Some people say your body is a temple, but mine seems to be a Jenga tower built on loads of loose, shitty blocks.

Everytime I bend over or stretch too much, my joints crack. Even eating food or yawning, my jaw cracks. I live with persistent neurological disturbances such as brain fog, visual snow, floaters, etc. For the past few months I've had constant headaches too. My legs have felt as heavy as lead, yet full of pins and needles, for many years now. All the muscles in my body constantly ache, but my back and legs are the worst. I am constantly fatigued every second of the day, with frequent bouts of dizziness and nausea. I cannot regulate my body temperature properly. I cant eat anything without feeling sick. My ears ring all day, everyday. I can't stay asleep because my bladder fills quickly and I always have to get up to piss in the middle of the night.

I was forced to work hard in low paying jobs as a teenager, because no one believed I was ill. They thought I was lazy and grueling labor would fix me right up. This exacerbated my pain and my inevitable decline. Once you lose your health, you won't get it back. Do not make the same mistakes I did.

Some people are fortunate to have good health well into old age. Others like me are simply cursed. Hence why I am spending my 22nd birthday laid up in bed, because I am in physical agony. It can happen to anyone, at anytime, and that's one of the scariest things about this life.

I wish none of you had to deal with health problems, regardless of age.

 

[sm20]

We mainly only talk about our mental health on here, but i havent seen too much about physical health.

My plan at the moment is to ctb after my dog dies, although that isnt completely set in stone, it is possible for things to turn around (pretty unlikely but not impossible) and if they do i might live on a little bit longer, im just thinking about how much longer i would want to live on if that scenario were to arise. Im currently 20 years old, ive always worked fast pace, manual labor jobs because no matter how hard i try i cant score an office job, id say im relatively healthy for my age, despite the fact that im slightly overweight and havent done a full on work out in a few years now.

What im hoping to get is some guidance from some older people on here, you dont necessarily have to be elderly, but somewhere upwards from your mid 30's (preferably). I want to know when you started (if you have started) to feel a real decline in your physical health, by that i mean, you dont really feel like you did when you were younger, you cant do things you did when you were younger, you get tired easily, aches and pains etc etc.

I get pains from time to time but theyre mostly after I get home from work, its not too bad but I already feel so different to when i was in my teen years (if that makes sense) and it does scare me a bit.

What are your experiences?

I stopped being able to play video games when I was 19 from wrist pain. In my teens I was able to play 16 hours a day for entire summers, I was only playing a few hours a day when I got my problem. The aches haven't gone away since, a lot of it is probably genes.

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm 33.

At my 30s, I finally confirmed that the "30s crisis" was real.
You get fatter easily, you get tired easily, you start having some small random health problems such as stomachaches and constant headaches, finding love becomes more difficult, people start calling you "sir" and that (at least to me) hurts you a lot mentally.

Damn, I can't believe I managed to be in this world for so long!

That can be solved by going to the gym

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not old - I'm 20 so my answer doesn't apply to the question. Many young people suffer with all sorts of health problems, it isn't just limited to older people. I spent a lot of my teenage years feeling unwell every day with feeling sick and having swollen glands. I now have various ear problems and tinnitus which were made worse by microsuctions done by doctors.

My body aches and I have neck pain occasionally and I generally just feel unwell. Being prescribed the wrong medications had an bad affect on my body. Our bodies can torture us and we can have little control over it. There is no limit as to how bad it can get which is why I believe strongly in a right to die. Old age scares me honestly.

 

[Callie Arcale]

At 30. I collapsed one day at work when I was 30. I had had health issues before that, but they were manageable. Everything deteriorated rapidly for me after that collapse. It's been more than a decade now and I have come to accept this is what my life looks like and I will never be healthy again. I wish I had died that day.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Wow, your story is so similar to mine, right down to the abusive family members and genetics gone awry.

My answer probably won't instill any hope either, if anything, it's further proof of the utter randomness and luck of the draw one experiences in the life roulette.

I got sick with chronic fatigue when I was 17, after a couple of viral infections. My immune system was very poor, and I had several vitamin deficiencies at this time. Doctors gaslit me for years and told me I was depressed, until the symptoms were too glaring to ignore. Now my issues are permanent, as it's been nearly 5 years and I haven't recovered at all, only continously deteriorated.

My mother had chronic fatigue syndrome too, and was too ill to raise me growing up, so I've spent an entire lifetime without a mother, because she chose to have kids she couldn't take care of. Autoimmune diseases, brittle bones, autism and other developmental disabilities, cancer, etc all run in my family, yet no one in my bloodline spared a thought about whether or not it was a good idea to gamble with bringing another child into this world who could suffer from these conditions.

Over the years, I've had to watch my peers experience the peaks of their lives. Most people my age are in their prime. They are the healthiest and the most invigorated that they will ever be.

For most people in their early 20s, doing chores, walking to the shop, and standing up for long periods of time is no bother. They can stay up all night, drink like fishes, eat whatever they like, dance in clubs till the next morning, pass out wake up and do it again with no consequences.

Meanwhile, here I am. Chronic fatigue, chronic pain all over my body, autism, ptsd, tmj, horrible eyesight, many allergies, ibs and constant digestive problems, tinnitus, the list of problems continues to stack up as the days go by. Some people say your body is a temple, but mine seems to be a Jenga tower built on loads of loose, shitty blocks.

Everytime I bend over or stretch too much, my joints crack. Even eating food or yawning, my jaw cracks. I live with persistent neurological disturbances such as brain fog, visual snow, floaters, etc. For the past few months I've had constant headaches too. My legs have felt as heavy as lead, yet full of pins and needles, for many years now. All the muscles in my body constantly ache, but my back and legs are the worst. I am constantly fatigued every second of the day, with frequent bouts of dizziness and nausea. I cannot regulate my body temperature properly. I cant eat anything without feeling sick. My ears ring all day, everyday. I can't stay asleep because my bladder fills quickly and I always have to get up to piss in the middle of the night.

I was forced to work hard in low paying jobs as a teenager, because no one believed I was ill. They thought I was lazy and grueling labor would fix me right up. This exacerbated my pain and my inevitable decline. Once you lose your health, you won't get it back. Do not make the same mistakes I did.

Some people are fortunate to have good health well into old age. Others like me are simply cursed. Hence why I am spending my 22nd birthday laid up in bed, because I am in physical agony. It can happen to anyone, at anytime, and that's one of the scariest things about this life.

I wish none of you had to deal with health problems, regardless of age.

I am so, so sorry you are going through all that you are. I can relate to almost everything so I understand, especially about eating making you feel sick and the floaters and fatigue and how ill health has robbed you of enjoying what you should be at your age (I missed out on all that as well).

Oh and about the gaslighting doctors and people thinking you were just lazy, etc: yep. SAME. I went through many years of being basically called a liar, a faker, exaggerating my symptoms to get out of school or work. I know how that F**s up someone.

If you ever need someone to vent to or anything, I'm here and happy to listen. I'm old enough to be your mom but I lived what you're unfortunately living now. Again, I'm so sorry. This world is so unfair and cruel and you deserve SO MUCH BETTER than the hand you've been dealt.

 

[Canon1]

At the age of 33/34

 

[Tree frog]

I'm in my mid 40s I've always been active and exercised. I honestly think I'm in better shape now than I have ever been physically. Mentally not so much. I took prozac for 12 yrs I got off it in 2017, it did work but bad side effects for me. So I use exercise as an antidepressant instead and to exhaust myself. It does work, nothing's perfect but it helps so much.. Full disclaimer i stuffed my knee up few years ago and had surgery. That was crap but can happen to anyone and it's back 100% now. Our society is a bizzare mix of innactive desk workers or people ruining their bodies in labouring jobs so we assume it's just normal to be wrecked by your 40s. You can be healthy into old age I believe. Not to undermine people suffering with health issues of course, they have my empathy and it can also be luck if you have underlying issues etc. Sounds like you are pretty healthy/active so just keep at it and don't give up physically is my advice for what it's worth. Hope that didn't sound preachy..I'm the last person to preach believe me