Ok serious

[Insertname1]

I post alot on here, mainly coz I feel vulnerable, and like others advice, my last post was about my rope and lubricating it, and been at a hotel to partial. So my ex fiance blocked me, I never had a social media. So I was thinking about getting the hotel room and then messaging the ex on Facebook, she won't know its me, saying that I'm sorry and I cant do it anymore, the advantage is that I won't be home so someone can't find me, do you think its a good Idea?

 

[Stick]

If she won't know it's you, then why will you send her a message? I'm not trying to be rude I just want to know the reasoning.

 

[Insertname1]

If she won't know it's you, then why will you send her a message? I'm not trying to be rude I just want to know the reasoning.

She might guess its me coz she knows I have a history of suicide attempts, but if im elsewhere while I do it I cant be caught and stopped, and she knows that at least I'd have found peace

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Why go to a hotel to text her on fb? Maybe I misread

 

[Insertname1]

Why go to a hotel to text her on fb? Maybe I misread

Coz she wont know where I am,

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Coz she wont know where I am,

Oh so you want to tell her you're sorry without her knowing it's you, and when she finds out about you then she will know...
Do you think she'll see it? Many people don't check the messages on fb that are not from the people on their list.
What if you sent a letter? Not disagreeing with your wish, just throwing an idea out there.

 

[Insertname1]

Oh so you want to tell her you're sorry without her knowing it's you, and when she finds out about you then she will know...
Do you think she'll see it? Many people don't check the messages on fb that are not from the people on their list.
What if you sent a letter? Not disagreeing with your wish, just throwing an idea out there.

She'd see it at some point right? Doesn't have to be immediate, its like leaving a suicide note but more personal?

 

[checkouttime]

Are you wanting to do this to hurt her? i feel like it might do. even more so than you just CTB.

so what are your intentions for it i guess im asking?

 

[GoneGoneGone]

She'd see it at some point right? Doesn't have to be immediate, its like leaving a suicide note but more personal?

i don't know to be honest. She might, but it might be 1-2 months after. It depends

 

[Insertname1]

Are you wanting to do this to hurt her? i feel like it might do. even more so than you just CTB.

so what are your intentions for it i guess im asking?

I dont want to do it to hurt her, she'd find out regardless if I said anything or not. But it would show her that I was telling the truth, and the fact people can have a profound effect on others

 

[Lmd]

I dont want to do it to hurt her, she'd find out regardless if I said anything or not. But it would show her that I was telling the truth, and the fact people can have a profound effect on others

Well she already know about your intentions right? whats the point of the message

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I dont want to do it to hurt her, she'd find out regardless if I said anything or not. But it would show her that I was telling the truth, and the fact people can have a profound effect on others

Do you mean to say that she hurt you?

 

[Insertname1]

Do you mean to say that she hurt you?

Oh she destroyed me, and stole from me, but thats not why I'd want to send her a message

 

[checkouttime]

I dont want to do it to hurt her, she'd find out regardless if I said anything or not. But it would show her that I was telling the truth, and the fact people can have a profound effect on others

Its a hard one! like i don't know if she is part of the reason you want to CTB. but i have a feeling if you message her and then CTB, she might feel like you have done it because of her, which in turn could effect her.

I'm not saying don't, i'm just trying to give you a point of view that could be taken.

 

[Insertname1]

Its a hard one! like i don't know if she is part of the reason you want to CTB. but i have a feeling if you message her and then CTB, she might feel like you have done it because of her, which in turn could effect her.

I'm not saying don't, i'm just trying to give you a point of view that could be taken.

She is my ex fiance, and I was gonna mention it in my note after I ctb
Maybe im just super selfish idk

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Oh she destroyed me, and stole from me, but thats not why I'd want to send her a message

It's a tough one. I think in general people would consider that it would be traumatizing if you did that to her. She would have you on her conscience her whole life.

If you didn't contact her on fb, would she still know that she is the reason why this happened?

 

[Insertname1]

It's a tough one. I think in general people would consider that it would be traumatizing if you did that to her. She would have you on her conscience her whole life.

If you didn't contact her on fb, would she still know that she is the reason why this happened?

If I didnt say anything she'd know id still ctb'd and maybe still feel the same way, im always gonna leave a note to make sure she doesn't blame herself

 

[checkouttime]

She is my ex fiance, and I was gonna mention it in my note after I ctb
Maybe im just super selfish idk

you see in a note, i think it would sound better. on fb i dont like the idea, but you might be alot younger than me and fb etc is what you do. but its entirely upto you. maybe some of the women on here would relate better to it than me

i dont think your selfish btw i think i get your point, just not sure if its the best way to do things

 

[Insertname1]

you see in a note, i think it would sound better. on fb i dont like the idea, but you might be alot younger than me and fb etc is what you do. but its entirely upto you. maybe some of the women on here would relate better to it than me

I'm 30, I dont have FB. Id have to make one, everyone I know has fb. But I've always hated the idea of it

 

[checkouttime]

I'm 30, I dont have FB. Id have to make one, everyone I know has fb. But I've always hated the idea of it

i left fb years ago! if you mentioned in a note that you dont want her to blame herself thats not a bad thing. i defo avoid the social media thing though

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

I often think, I will kill myself and they will realize how their actions were responsible and will feel guilty, etc. Then I realized that no, they will use my suicide to justify their abandonment of me. "See? She was crazy so I had to defend my own sanity." They will blame me for what they did and let themselves off the hook. I don't know, but thinking that makes me angry and will push me back from the edge, at least for a while.

Then I think, I will show them! And try to do something that feels good. Recently, it is shooting guns. Double joy because they are anti-gun! Ha! And I am really good at it.

 

[Insertname1]

I often think, I will kill myself and they will realize how their actions were responsible and will feel guilty, etc. Then I realized that no, they will use my suicide to justify their abandonment of me. "See? She was crazy so I had to defend my own sanity." They will blame me for what they did and let themselves off the hook. I don't know, but thinking that makes me angry and will push me back from the edge, at least for a while.

Then I think, I will show them! And try to do something that feels good. Recently, it is shooting guns. Double joy because they are anti-gun! Ha! And I am really good at it.

Its not coz of her i want to ctb, theres things that happened years ago that haunt the fuck out of me, that make me want to, but even before that I wanted to ctb

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I often think, I will kill myself and they will realize how their actions were responsible and will feel guilty, etc. Then I realized that no, they will use my suicide to justify their abandonment of me. "See? She was crazy so I had to defend my own sanity." They will blame me for what they did and let themselves off the hook.

That's how I also see it. My ex is responsible for the situation I'm currently in (partly), but I won't address them in my note or contact them at all. They will know.

Its not coz of her i want to ctb, theres things that happened years ago that haunt the fuck out of me, that make me want to, but even before that I wanted to ctb

Then... don't write her anything?

You are giving us a bit of contradicting pieces of info, on the one hand you say she destroyed you, on the other you say you want to make sure she doesn't blame herself. It's between you two.

If you think she'll blame herself, then leave a note and say she shouldn't.

 

[Insertname1]

This is why I like this site, I value everyone's opinion, thank you everyone :)

 

[Infinite Conscious]

If you plan to rent a hotel room on your name, in your hometown... sending a FB message could be quite risky, because you can't know when it will be read.

If you are not home, the police will first check the nearby hotels... and it doesn't even have to be police, it could be your family or ex-fiance.

You need several hours to be left alone... and she already knows you "couldn't take it any more".

I know none of us listen to anybody when we feel like writing a message to an ex... but do be careful and plan it well.

Good luck.

 

[Insertname1]

If you plan to rent a hotel room on your name, in your hometown... sending a FB message could be quite risky, because you can't know when it will be read.

If you are not home, the police will first check the nearby hotels... and it doesn't even have to be police, it could be your family or ex-fiance.

You need several hours to be left alone... and she already knows you "couldn't take it any more".

I know none of us listen to anybody when we feel like writing a message to an ex... but do be careful and plan it well.

Good luck.

I didnt think about that ugh, probably best just to keep quiet then, thanks for your input though :)