desejo boa sorte , tem que ter muita coragem mesmo principalmente quando se tem dúvidas quanto "outro lado".. o coma estragou a convicção cega que é a mesma coisa que tomar uma cartela de rivo e ir dormir, cara , tenho uma mini farmacia aqui so das amostras que foram sobrando, e nao quero acordar vomitando de 20 em 20 min.. acordar é um pesadelo, eu não sou policia nao sou socorrista nao estive em area de conflito mas desenvolvi PTSD parassomnia e é igual freddy krueger é energetico café tudo pra nao cair no sono e ,, acordar socando parede gritando tomando tazer de policia sendo algemado entendendo NADA.... of course we shouldnt talk about such things in portguese people will always try to rip someone off but if anyone in this thread is there still someone around? id appreciate having someone to talk, or better ,to listen to, i cant bear listening to mself anymore even the "deafening silence".. and no i dont have any social contact the only person i had , is gone, in fact you have the feeling that was idealization all along. spend some 8 years trying to "re-start" whatever hasn't been started or has been interrupted. one day you realize the futility of "rowing a boat alone hopelessly spiraling downwards the abyss.. what a cliche. the urge to leave this place like youre late for some appointment not here, nowhere, no place nowhere, thats how it feels isnt it? damn i can't shut up or "relax" for nearly 4 days straight .
