BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,635
Why can't I just bloody kill myself? People want me to get better and be happy but i can't. Even if I could, I have no desire to get better. I hate this country, I hate this planet, I hate myself. I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve peace. And I wouldn't want to stick around for this shit anyway.
I really hope I can get meds that make me impulsively suicidal again. It was such a mistake to stop the Lexapro after my stupid attempt. I need a kick so I can take my SN. I deserve to fucking die.
I feel like such a jerk for my earlier posts by the way, I want to apologize to you guys. I think I was just trying to convince myself I could do it.
I really hope I can get meds that make me impulsively suicidal again. It was such a mistake to stop the Lexapro after my stupid attempt. I need a kick so I can take my SN. I deserve to fucking die.
I feel like such a jerk for my earlier posts by the way, I want to apologize to you guys. I think I was just trying to convince myself I could do it.