How confident am I in this method? Not very, but I'm out of options.
ondansetron and scopolamine patch to start. 1g Baclofen, maybe crushed. 30 minutes later, lorazepam, maybe crushed. Taking them in this order because the baclofen should take longer to kick in than the lorazepam. Not sure I want to add anything else due to risk of vomiting and wasting the meds.
Doubled plastic bag over the head with a robe cord in a slip knot, tightened as I get sleepy to keep the bag closed.
Hope the meds kick in so I'm deep enough out before CO2 kicks in SI.
Before the day, I'll spend more and more time with a bag over my head to get used to the feeling and meditating, keeping my mind on the goal. Practicing meditations to help me fall asleep each night as well. The old practice your coping techniques before a crisis, for anyone that has been through therapy, haha.
If this fails, I'm guaranteed time in the psych ward at the very least, likely wouldn't have access to meds for my chronic conditions anymore, both would suck. Brain damage would be worse I guess. CTB is the goal so, life is really worst case all around.
I know OD and bags are not reliable. But perhaps more reliable than having 30 minutes undisturbed to hang (it would take me longer anyway due to physical conditions slowing me down)
I'd love a more reliable method, but I'm not savvy enough and don't have money for sourcing all the meds in the PPH, and I'm afraid I'd get scammed with ineffective meds anyway. Can't risk the legal implications anyway. My house doesn't have private anchor points for any kind of hanging, and I'm physically and monetarily incapable of getting myself somewhere else. I could get argon delivered to the house, but again, money, and I've read it's more difficult with being heavier than air, and that it might end up feeling like suffocation anyway. Helium or nitrogen would require expensive in person purchases, and honestly, I don't think I could manage the tanks or the set up in my physical condition. Tanks would draw major suspicious attention anyway. Can't legally purchase a firearm, couldn't afford one anyway, and again, not savvy enough for illegal options.
Thoughts?
ondansetron and scopolamine patch to start. 1g Baclofen, maybe crushed. 30 minutes later, lorazepam, maybe crushed. Taking them in this order because the baclofen should take longer to kick in than the lorazepam. Not sure I want to add anything else due to risk of vomiting and wasting the meds.
Doubled plastic bag over the head with a robe cord in a slip knot, tightened as I get sleepy to keep the bag closed.
Hope the meds kick in so I'm deep enough out before CO2 kicks in SI.
Before the day, I'll spend more and more time with a bag over my head to get used to the feeling and meditating, keeping my mind on the goal. Practicing meditations to help me fall asleep each night as well. The old practice your coping techniques before a crisis, for anyone that has been through therapy, haha.
If this fails, I'm guaranteed time in the psych ward at the very least, likely wouldn't have access to meds for my chronic conditions anymore, both would suck. Brain damage would be worse I guess. CTB is the goal so, life is really worst case all around.
I know OD and bags are not reliable. But perhaps more reliable than having 30 minutes undisturbed to hang (it would take me longer anyway due to physical conditions slowing me down)
I'd love a more reliable method, but I'm not savvy enough and don't have money for sourcing all the meds in the PPH, and I'm afraid I'd get scammed with ineffective meds anyway. Can't risk the legal implications anyway. My house doesn't have private anchor points for any kind of hanging, and I'm physically and monetarily incapable of getting myself somewhere else. I could get argon delivered to the house, but again, money, and I've read it's more difficult with being heavier than air, and that it might end up feeling like suffocation anyway. Helium or nitrogen would require expensive in person purchases, and honestly, I don't think I could manage the tanks or the set up in my physical condition. Tanks would draw major suspicious attention anyway. Can't legally purchase a firearm, couldn't afford one anyway, and again, not savvy enough for illegal options.
Thoughts?
