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meowzers3276

meowzers3276

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Mar 28, 2026
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just thinking abt it OCD is probably the primary reason life feels impossible or not worth living. like working, relationships, friends, family, all of it is surrounded with either fear or guilt. Ive just kind of completely pulled away and isolated myself from everything in life because its ALL intimidating. and i try to be brave, but once i crush one fear, a new one pops up in its place, and i feel so buried in layers of something that makes no sense to anyone. i feel so alone and people try to help but its just not that easy and i think out of all of my like "issues" its stemming from the OCD. i was diagnosed and doing therapy 2-3Ɨ a week for it but i stopped because i work all the time
i dont even feel good enough for hobbies anymore, i cant focus on doing anything that comes from within, its all so foreign to me now and i used to be a artist
 
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i so understand you. my compulsions were very weird and not the usual cleaning and checking (although i did have that too) and my obsessions consumed my very being and i could not function daily.
but on the bright side, i started a medicine called fluvoxamine maleate and it helped me 100%. like i absolutely got cured with this meds. i hope you can one day feel the same peace i felt when i first started taking them and could feel how it is to not have these fears be all you think about all the time
 
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i so understand you. my compulsions were very weird and not the usual cleaning and checking (although i did have that too) and my obsessions consumed my very being and i could not function daily.
but on the bright side, i started a medicine called fluvoxamine maleate and it helped me 100%. like i absolutely got cured with this meds. i hope you can one day feel the same peace i felt when i first started taking them and could feel how it is to not have these fears be all you think about all the time
when i started fluoxetine and quetiapine i had temporary relief but it seems my body somehow adjusted to them and they arent effective... so maybe i will recontact my psychiatrist, thank you for your perspective :-)
 
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when i started fluoxetine and quetiapine i had temporary relief but it seems my body somehow adjusted to them and they arent effective... so maybe i will recontact my psychiatrist, thank you for your perspective :-)
i hope you can one day recover from this ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ it's tough but it's not the end, although i understand your suffering
 
soonatpeace777888

soonatpeace777888

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Jul 4, 2023
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Yes I have this disorder and it's one of the main reasons (not the only) for my wanting to CTB. You don't even know how certain things that happen to you should actually be interpreted.
 
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when i started fluoxetine and quetiapine i had temporary relief but it seems my body somehow adjusted to them and they arent effective... so maybe i will recontact my psychiatrist, thank you for your perspective :-)
I hate that this happens with meds when I first started taking my respiredone I was like… cured and now it's like there's nothing I'm so sorry you have to go through what you go through ocd is evil
 

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