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wastingpotential
drowning, always.
- Feb 8, 2023
- 163
last post i asked ab any methods that could guarantee me survival if i tried them because i wanted to bring attention to my suffering and have someone actually listen to me. but i think i'm just pulling back on that now and going to try attempting again and hope it actually kills me
i'm over eighteen and still in fucking high school because i failed a year once due to health being awful and constant moving made the system try push me back cause of different curriculums. my grades have always sucked because i never fully understood the language i was learning in and this year i changed curriculums and i'm learning in english now, which was supposed to be good cause i'm fluent in it. no matter how fucking good i think i'm doing on tests or assignments my grades still end up being either the BARE MINIMUM to pass or a straight up fail. i'm so fucking exhausted
this on top of everything i'm enduring this past year is enough to make me wanna die even more. i know i said in the last post i had things i wanted to wait out on but it doesnt even matter anymore. i'm gonna end up a high school dropout no matter how hard i try and i'm gonna keep living my days in fear of my fucking sa'er being in this house.
my best and only method i could try get my hands on right now is overdosing. i can't think of much else right now. i'm so tired and i just want to cry. at least i can say i tried, right? i tried to live, i really did
i'm over eighteen and still in fucking high school because i failed a year once due to health being awful and constant moving made the system try push me back cause of different curriculums. my grades have always sucked because i never fully understood the language i was learning in and this year i changed curriculums and i'm learning in english now, which was supposed to be good cause i'm fluent in it. no matter how fucking good i think i'm doing on tests or assignments my grades still end up being either the BARE MINIMUM to pass or a straight up fail. i'm so fucking exhausted
this on top of everything i'm enduring this past year is enough to make me wanna die even more. i know i said in the last post i had things i wanted to wait out on but it doesnt even matter anymore. i'm gonna end up a high school dropout no matter how hard i try and i'm gonna keep living my days in fear of my fucking sa'er being in this house.
my best and only method i could try get my hands on right now is overdosing. i can't think of much else right now. i'm so tired and i just want to cry. at least i can say i tried, right? i tried to live, i really did