Venting Numb and just detached

[Slimetae]

when one of my close family members died everyone like extremely emotional when they heard the news I was already going through a ton so it's like It didn't effect me .to the point where people told me it's okay to cry idk I just don't react the same way other people do I've always been like that we were close tho like brothersand sometimes I have random dreams and he just pops up in themI wish I could switch places tho.