Nsfw , Is this a good reason to commit suicide?

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Basically as my username suggests , I have a Micropenis.

It affects 0.6 % of Males.

I had to be one of them.

Its a sexual and social disability.

I dont wana live with this.

I will never be desired or have normal sex.

Most men with micro are only boxed in the roles of submissive and humiliation which i really hate.

I just wana be normal .

I dont even have a bulge, sometimes it just sticks out because it sits on my testicles.... its so embarrasing when i go out in public i notice people give my groin area strange looks.

I feel emasculated , il never be desired or keep a relationship.

It was so bad i thought of doing a sex change ( before they use to do this with kids with my condition).

At least id have something to offer women (breasts and a neo vagina)

But idk i dont know its just sickening .

Why me, so much problems already in life then add a micropenis?

this has to be punishment for a passed life.

this affects my life in so many ways , it may seem insignificant but if youd be in my shoes youd understand.

if i did have a normal penis id just drown my sorrows with women, love and sex just to cope.

but now i cant even do that.

so whats the use as a man and why should i live.

No friends, No family besides my dad who care , no job or skills, balding , barely average looks , suffer rejection , suffer humiliation , cant go in public, cant have casual sex or a meaningful relationship etc.

This video shows the bulge problem and exlpains it more , imagine living with this but even more odd looking :

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry man, that's horrible. We humans have two most primal needs, that is sex and food. That's how we function and that is what gives us motivation in life. When that is disturbed then we have no purpose really, just to pass time. It must be tough what you're dealing. Maybe you can find some other purpose or things that bring you joy in life that keep you going. Have you tried something to help with the bulge problem, like sticking a sock in there to give that area some convexity? Ultimately it's up to you to decide whether life is worth it or not but if you're able to function and have some sort of normal life I would suggest keeping on, you never know what comes after.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Sorry man, that's horrible. We humans have two most primal needs, that is sex and food. That's how we function and that is what gives us motivation in life. When that is disturbed then we have no purpose really, just to pass time. It must be tough what you're dealing. Maybe you can find some other purpose or things that bring you joy in life that keep you going. Have you tried something to help with the bulge problem, like sticking a sock in there to give that area some convexity? Ultimately it's up to you to decide whether life is worth it or not but if you're able to function and have some sort of normal life I would suggest keeping on, you never know what comes after.

Im utterly useless like i wouldnt even be able to do that right.

I would have liked that to at least appear normal/

and yes to me life isnt worth living without intimacy and relationships.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

when i go out in public i notice people give my groin area strange looks.

This is in your head. Women do not 'check out' men's bulges, however much men wish women were that way, and men certainly don't either, unless they're horny homos. I have literally no expectation of what that area should look like on anyone, and have no interest in what this area looks like whatsoever - the only exception to this is on an attractive woman wearing skin-tight leggings showing camel toe, which you are not!

if i did have a normal penis id just drown my sorrows with women, love and sex just to cope.

so you're pissed off you have a micro-penis, so you can't drown your sorrows with meaningless sex?! I don't think your MAIN problem is the size of your penis. I think your other issues need to be prioritized, whatever they are - yer know, the one's that make you want to drown your sorrows with women, love and sex?!

 

[Mental_Pain]

@Pain In The Ass

Sounds a little harsh but I somewhat agree!

@MicropBaldCurrycel

If it's any help, I don't suffer from the same issue yet I still crave intimacy etc. I've drowned my sorrows with sex before and it doesn't help me with anything. It cannot fill the void of something real. I think that's what Pain In The Ass was getting at too.

Regarding the bulge, I think that Pain In The Ass is right in that respect. I feel that most people will not look at (or care about) that area. My bulge looks very different depending on the type of clothing worn. Sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller, sometimes pretty much non-existent.

With regards to your question, only you can answer that. Personally, I would prefer a peaceful calm life over anything else at this point. If I had to choose between having a small penis or the opportunity to lead a mostly satisfying life then I would have it cut off immediately.

I appreciate it probably doesn't feel that way to you and I'm sorry you feel so unhappy. I hope you find peace in whatever you choose to do.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

@Pain In The Ass

Sounds a little harsh but I somewhat agree!

@MicropBaldCurrycel

If it's any help, I don't suffer from the same issue yet I still crave intimacy etc. I've drowned my sorrows with sex before and it doesn't help me with anything. It cannot fill the void of something real. I think that's what Pain In The Ass was getting at too.

Regarding the bulge, I think that Pain In The Ass is right in that respect. I feel that most people will not look at (or care about) that area. My bulge looks very different depending on the type of clothing worn. Sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller, sometimes pretty much non-existent.

With regards to your question, only you can answer that. Personally, I would prefer a peaceful calm life over anything else at this point. If I had to choose between having a small penis or the opportunity to lead a mostly satisfying life then I would have it cut off immediately.

I appreciate it probably doesn't feel that way to you and I'm sorry you feel so unhappy. I hope you find peace in whatever you choose to do.

It probably sounds harsh, because I am a cunt. I also would cut my cock off in exchange for no more chronic physical pain, and I would be so happy about it! I don't intend to ever have sex ever again anyway, even though I have a normal-sized penis. Women can use your semen to extract money from you, for at least 16 years after you ejaculated, whilst some other man, who you hate, reads your children bedtime stories. It's one of the worst things ever and regularly results in murder-suicides.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

This is in your head

This is absolutely not in my head i notice it all the time , dont diminish someone elses experience.. you have no idea what its like youre not in my body or live my life.... i even linked a video to show the bulge problem that the other guy experiences, it is an absolute thing .

Wayback Machine

Look at this image to get a better idea.

A normal penis hangs , a smaller one protrudes because its positioned on top of the balls .

with women, love and sex?!

and again this may not seem much to you but to a starved person it is the best thing.

like i said your life isnt my life you are not me dont tell me how i experience things or what i should or sholdnt priotrize , sex and love and relationships are all normal part and a pretty big part of human life, we wouldnt even be born if it wasnt.

e opportunity to lead a mostly satisfying life then I would have it cut off immediately.

thats you you probably have had the opportunity to experience sex and relationships , to me life is meaningless and lonely without it as i never have it before so its a typical normie response to us incels " sex doesnt matter!"" "Sex is nothing!" " relationships dont matter!"

its like a rich person saying " Money doesnt buy happiness!"

 

[Mental_Pain]

It probably sounds harsh, because I am a cunt. I also would cut my cock off in exchange for no more chronic physical pain, and I would be so happy about it! I don't intend to ever have sex ever again anyway, even though I have a normal-sized penis. Women can use your semen to extract money from you, for at least 16 years after you ejaculated, whilst some other man, who you hate, reads your children bedtime stories. It's one of the worst things ever and regularly results in murder-suicides.

I've re-written this as there was too many rude words in it and it was sent for moderation.. Have replaced with the word 'cake' for another four letter word beginning with c.

I'm not sure anyone is naturally a cake. I think life does that to us.. It's only as I face the end of mine that I feel I can leave my anger towards others behind.

I've spent my life hating various others (and telling them). I now wish I could have spent more time ignoring those that don't matter and focusing on those that do.

I'm sorry to hear about your situation but I would do anything to have kids of my own. My partner wanted them but I was so occupied with work stuff that I couldn't focus on it. And now she's gone. Admittedly, I imagine it would be horrible to have someone else (especially someone you hate) spending more time with them.

Chronic pain is not something I can relate to exactly but I expect that living with is is similar to my experience of almost continuous anxiety and depression. This manifests itself as an unending pain to me. I can take the pain but the continuous nature of it has broken me.

In conclusion, I'm not convinced that you're a cake. I've met thousands of cakes in my life and none of them care about anything or anyone other than themselves. You obviously care about your kids therefore you're only a partial cake at best. :)

Apologies to OP for the thread hijack. Normal service will be resumed shortly.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

dont diminish someone elses experience

That's the silliest link I've ever clicked! I'm not diminishing your experience - I'm diminishing your perception of other people's experiences of you, which I have every fucking right to do, because I am part of that sample group, and also know people in that sample group.

Lets ask...

DO ANY WOMEN ON HERE CHECK-OUT MEN'S GROIN PACKAGE SIZES IN THE STREET??? (Except in rare cases where it might be humorous because some man looks like they have a leg of lamb stuffed down there) ANYONE??? ANYONE AT ALL???!!!

(Horny gay men don't count, obviously!)

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

DO ANY WOMEN ON HERE CHECK-OUT MEN'S GROIN PACKAGE SIZES IN THE STREET??? (Except in rare cases where it might be humorous because some man looks like they have a leg of lamb stuffed down there) ANYONE??? ANYONE AT ALL???!!!

like i said i notice people looking all the time i dont care if you believe me or not...

 

[Mental_Pain]

This is absolutely not in my head i notice it all the time , dont diminish someone elses experience.. you have no idea what its like youre not in my body or live my life.... i even linked a video to show the bulge problem that the other guy experiences, it is an absolute thing .

Wayback Machine

Look at this image to get a better idea.

A normal penis hangs , a smaller one protrudes because its positioned on top of the balls .


and again this may not seem much to you but to a starved person it is the best thing.

like i said your life isnt my life you are not me dont tell me how i experience things or what i should or sholdnt priotrize , sex and love and relationships are all normal part and a pretty big part of human life, we wouldnt even be born if it wasnt.

thats you you probably have had the opportunity to experience sex and relationships , to me life is meaningless and lonely without it as i never have it before so its a typical normie response to us incels " sex doesnt matter!"" "Sex is nothing!" " relationships dont matter!"

its like a rich person saying " Money doesnt buy happiness!"

I'm sorry if I've upset you as well by continuing those thoughts. This was not my intention at all.

I was attempting to try to help answer your original question. I understand completely your position on this.

I'm going to have a look at the video now and try for something more constructive or empathetic shortly.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

like i said i notice people looking all the time i dont care if you believe me or not...

It doesn't matter what YOU notice, it matters what THEY are ACTUALLY looking at! If you think your perception is more important than ACTUAL REALITY, well then you can't be helped.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

It doesn't matter what YOU notice, it matters what THEY are ACTUALLY looking at! If you think your perception is more important than ACTUAL REALITY, well then you can't be helped.

they are looking , go watch the youtube video to understand. Please stop telling me its all in my head, its very frustrating to have a negative experience and people just keep brushing it off as it just being in your head, youre being a typical normie and just dismissing any male body shaming issues.

watch the youtube video as he shows his bulge and explains why its painfully noticeable .

 

[Pain In The Ass]

i dont care if you believe me or not

I'm not talking about what 'I believe' - I'm talking about what's ACTUALLY HAPPENING - lets ask the people who you are talking about.....

WHO STARES AT MEN'S COCK BULGES???? ANYONE????

(Minus gays)

 

[come to dust]

It's definitely a valid reason to CTB. As a fellow currycel, I can agree that social expectation is stacked against us.

I have other reason related to physical health that make me want to ctb, but even with them, the small penis and ugly currycel features I have would be enough for me to ctb still.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I'm not talking about what 'I believe' - I'm talking what's ACTUALLY HAPPENING - lets ask the people who you are talking about.....

WHO STARES AT MEN'S COCK BULGES???? ANYONE????

(Minus gays)

youre naive...

ACTUALLY HAPPENING

this is a very arrogant and ignorant thing to say , you are not living my life and you are not with me when i go out or notice the people giving the area weird looks so i am not engaging in this conversation with you anymore, thank you.

the small penis and ugly currycel features

Yep and then u get normies telling us " Its all in your head!" "Sex doesnt matter!" " "relationships are nothing!"

 

[Pain In The Ass]

Most of the people on those sites are probably men posing as women, saying things they wish women would say, because it makes them horny!

Still no answers HERE I notice, from 'women who get horny staring at cock bulges!!!'

I just learned what a 'Currycel' is...

Jesus help you, you retarded wank-stain!

 

[come to dust]

Most of the people on those sites are probably men posing as women, saying things they wish women would say, because it makes them horny!

I just learned what a 'Currycel' is...

Jesus help you, you retarded wank-stain!

Why don't you get a life instead of bullying suicidal people on a forum?

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Most of the people on those sites are probably men posing as women, saying things they wish women would say, because it makes them horny!

I just learned what a 'Currycel' is...

Jesus help you, you retarded wank-stain!

i said im not engaging with you anymore and drop the insults or personal attacks or else i will report you .

Please stop telling me about my experiences and whats causing my issues. I will report you for breaking forum rules.

Do not impose your views on my life experiences.


Do Not

• Harass, bully, attack or insult other members.
  • If someone is misbehaving or breaking the rules, report them instead. Do not troll or proselytize, meaning do not impose your views - no matter what they are - on others or make threads to get people riled up."

 

[Pain In The Ass]

i said im not engaging with you anymore and drop the insults or personal attacks or else i will report you .

Please stop telling me about my experiences and whats causing my issues. I will report you for breaking forum rules.

Do not impose your views on my life experiences.


Do Not

• Harass, bully, attack or insult other members.
  • If someone is misbehaving or breaking the rules, report them instead. Do not troll or proselytize, meaning do not impose your views - no matter what they are - on others or make threads to get people riled up."

Using the word 'Currycel' implies that all Indian men living in Western countries can't form relationships because of their race. So go ahead, report me, and I'll report you for using racist language.

 

[Niko66]

Most of the people on those sites are probably men posing as women, saying things they wish women would say, because it makes them horny!

Still no answers HERE I notice, from 'women who get horny staring at cock bulges!!!'

I just learned what a 'Currycel' is...

Jesus help you, you retarded wank-stain!

Wow calling people retarded in a fucking suicide forum of all things, since you love blunt truths so much here's one, you are disgusting piece of shit and the world would be better off without you.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

Why don't you get a life instead of bullying suicidal people on a forum?

Don't post about your fucking problems, unless you can handle people expressing their opinion of your problem. My assessment of whether other people, specifically women, prioritize penis-package size over other things is valid, because I know, and have known, many women in my life. I was trying to help him see he has become obsessed with something that isn't TRUE. But then I learned the term he's using - Currycel - which implies Indian men in Western countries can't get a fuck because of their race, which is beyond ridiculous, and probably breaks the rules on here for using racist language.

Wow calling people retarded in a fucking suicide forum of all things, since you love blunt truths so much here's one, you are disgusting piece of shit and the world would be better off without you.

I'm fine with you thinking that. It doesn't bother me at all. Go learn about the term he's using - Currycel. THAT is retarded!

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Don't post about your fucking problems, unless you can handle people expressing their opinion of your problem. My assessment of whether other people, specifically women, prioritize penis-package size over other things is valid, because I know, and have known, many women in my life. I was trying to help him see he has become obsessed with something that isn't TRUE. But then I learned the term he's using - Currycel - which implies Indian men in Western countries can't get a fuck because of their race, which is beyond ridiculous, and probably breaks the rules on here for using racist language.

I'm fine with you thinking that. It doesn't bother me at all. Go learn about the term he's using - Currycel. THAT is retarded!

first of all i am indian , secondly a currycel is An ugly indian man who cant get sex or a relation , it doesnt imply that all indian men are incels only the ugly ones like me and the other guy here . god damn u a troll though.

Lastly do not impose your views on anyone, you are free to comment and give your opinion but you were being imposing and telling me what my reality is.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

first of all i am indian , secondly a currycel is An ugly indian man who cant get sex or a relation , it doesnt imply that all indian men are incels only the ugly ones like me and the other guy here . god damn u a troll though.

Lastly do not impose your views on anyone, you are free to comment and give your opinion but you were being imposing and telling me what my reality is.

For the last time, you are talking about what OTHER PEOPLE'S realities are, because they are the one's doing the supposed looking, so THEIR intentions when LOOKING, completely and utterly TRUMP YOUR PERCEPTIONS!!! THESE ARE OTHER PEOPLE'S REALITIES, NOT YOURS!!!

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

For the last time, you are talking about what OTHER PEOPLE'S realities are, because they are the one's doing the supposed looking, so THEIR intentions when LOOKING, completely and utterly TRUMP YOUR PERCEPTIONS!!! THESE ARE OTHER PEOPLE'S REALITIES, NOT YOURS!!!

please read forum rules.

Do not troll or proselytize, meaning do not impose your views - no matter what they are!

 

[HappyForever?]

Though I have different issues than you, I'm affected in the same way, and I'm here for the exact same reason. It is a perfectly valid reason to CTB.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

please read forum rules.

Do not troll or proselytize, meaning do not impose your views - no matter what they are!

You're imposing your views by claiming to know what other people's intentions are when they look at you! You're doing the same thing! And Currycel is a racist term! So piss off and stop talking to me!

 

[Mental_Pain]

@MicropBaldCurrycel

By way of apology (if I have caused or added to any offense) I have watched the video and seen the picture. I have spent some time considering your situation. I'm not sure whether this will help as the thread seems to have devolved a little since my previous post(s) but I wanted to give you as honest and considered opinion as possible.

I completely understand your need to connect with others. This is difficult to quantify. Ultimately this reason will be the cause of my CTB.

I understand that the bulge must be of great concern to you. I have thought about this from an engineering perspective (to consider options to mitigate the difference in outward appearance), your perspective (it appears to cause you great concern) and both potential other's perspective and my own.

I cannot directly relate to this situation as is not my own. I have no engineering or practical solution to the outward appearance of the bulge although that may be something you could find a creative solution for. Your perception of this is your own, we cannot and should not try to change that. My thoughts of seeing such a bulge approaching me (i.e. walking in opposite directions towards each other) would either be to not notice at all or to imagine the bulge jeans naturally cause at the zip.

After such consideration and in honest answer to your original question I think only you know how you feel about this. I believe no-one else could truly know whether it affects your life to the point of CTB.

I hope you can find your peace wherever it comes from.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

the world would be better off without you

At no point did I say anything like that to him. I basically just told him that his perception of other's intentions cannot always be reality, and that the idea of the Currycel is racist and retarded. I've never said anything even close to what you just said to someone on a suicide forum. And YOU'RE the one on their high-horse, berating me! You're an imbecile.

 

[Niko66]

At no point did I say anything like that to him. I basically just told him that his perception of other's intentions cannot always be reality, and that the idea of the Currycel is racist and retarded. I've never said anything even close to what you just said to someone on a suicide forum. And YOU'RE the one on their high-horse, berating me! You're an imbecile.

You literally said to him "Jesus help you, you retarded wank-stain!"

And yeah I am in no high horse here, I know perfectly well I am stooping down your level because it pisses me off seeing pieces of shit pretending they want to help and turning to insults as quickly as the person they are "helping" doesn't bow down like you just shared God's word with them. you can also report me if you want, I regret jack shit of what I said. I take 0 issue with being an asshole to someone who comes to bully and insult others and invalidate their suffering. People like you with 0 regard for other's feelings can go fuck themselves and I'll gladly be a piece of shit to them too.