the witch’s lament
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- Sep 5, 2020
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I want it to be over. it's hard going through the loneliness and the actual physical pain I have from my years of abusing myself using drugs or self-harm. I have time and a method but I struggle with the thought of my discovery. the sooner I do it, in my mind, the better. but the soonest method is full suspension and using this I will be discovered by a loved one. I don't want to traumatize them the way I think that it would. the other method is SN in a hotel but even then I just lend that trauma to someone I don't even know. is there a lesser evil? is my worry in this rooted in something else? I am in so much mental and physical pain.