Venting Now I'm 100% Reliant On Distractions

[RedPanda]

It's crazy, I'm actually productive. I'm doing stuff, I've started new hobbies that I'm actually enjoying but I know all of this is for absolutely NOTHING. What is even the point of existence?

They are just distractions...and they are working...for now. I still know that deep down inside I want to commit suicide but wow, these distractions are doing a fantastic job of keeping me preoccupied. It's quite sad that I'm only doing this for the short term.

I'm destined to take my life. You can only distract yourself for so long before your own hand has a mind of it's own and pulls the trigger.

Anyone else reliant on distractions to help for now but you know that you're still going to commit suicide?

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes it is the same for me. I try to distract myself with games, reading, learning new shit, music, films and even sleep. I know eventually that these distractions will not be enough, though, and It will be time to pull the plug on my useless existence.

 

[Efilismislife]

But We all gonna die. Wether we plan it or not.

No one even know who still be alive tomorrow or die out of nowhere

if you can still enjoy life for now or tomorrow thats good.
If youre going to ctb whenever thats also free choice.

 

[BlankUser]

It's great that distractions are helping you! I think in situations like that life is a lot about distractions. But for me it's hard because I can't be easily distracted. It's my OCD that is ruining my hobbies. But if you can enjoy and forget, then take advantage of it. Who knows, maybe one day you'll discover something that will truly help you to recover.
I try to distract myself with things that give my brain some rest. Good luck!

 

[hahabye]

It's crazy, I'm actually productive. I'm doing stuff, I've started new hobbies that I'm actually enjoying but I know all of this is for absolutely NOTHING. What is even the point of existence?

They are just distractions...and they are working...for now. I still know that deep down inside I want to commit suicide but wow, these distractions are doing a fantastic job of keeping me preoccupied. It's quite sad that I'm only doing this for the short term.

I'm destined to take my life. You can only distract yourself for so long before your own hand has a mind of it's own and pulls the trigger.

Anyone else reliant on distractions to help for now but you know that you're still going to commit suicide?

Glad that you found something that works!

I feel like half of my life has been an active attempt at distracting myself from my suicidal thoughts.

And even now, when my end is near, I sometimes get that teenie-tiny feeling that I might be able to continue distracting myself if I just pushed through this yet another episode of very deep low. But I can't stand the thought of coming back to this place once my distraction is ruined by any kind of inconvenience that I am just not strong enough to face.

But I wish you lots of strength and joy with your new hobbies! And I hope they'll continue working forever (or more like, as long as possible).

 

[motel rooms]

Let me share a little secret with you. The normies are 200 % reliant on distractions, they're just not aware of it

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is just one big distraction really. Our true purpose and intention is to die. Everything we do is just passing time until we die. Nothing has any meaning or purpose. I am very reliant on them, I will overthink if I am not distracted by something. It doesn't always work though.

 

[Makko]

Life is just one big distraction really.

Life is what happens while you're making your suicide plans

 

[Meditation guide]

It's crazy, I'm actually productive. I'm doing stuff, I've started new hobbies that I'm actually enjoying but I know all of this is for absolutely NOTHING. What is even the point of existence?

They are just distractions...and they are working...for now. I still know that deep down inside I want to commit suicide but wow, these distractions are doing a fantastic job of keeping me preoccupied. It's quite sad that I'm only doing this for the short term.

I'm destined to take my life. You can only distract yourself for so long before your own hand has a mind of it's own and pulls the trigger.

Anyone else reliant on distractions to help for now but you know that you're still going to commit suicide?

Yes like you I'm reliant on distractions. Once in a while I realize that I'm just treading water. I do have some real interests in things and my distractions are pretty valid right now. For how much longer I can't say.

 

[alwaysSuffering]

I relate to this completely. I spend all day with the tv on while surfing the internet or working on some kind of project just to stay busy to try to keep my mind off the things I don't want to think of. I've wasted over 10 years of my life like this. If I don't use distractions, I can deal w/ the pain of my existence.

 

[return2dreamland]

i've been living off distractions since october last year. sure, they're fun, but i know that it's a matter of time until i say "screw it," and die.
wishing you the best <3