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Apr 8, 2020
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This month has been super triggering for me. 2 years ago in November when I was 25 years old I met the 55 year old man I feel in love with. Meeting him is one of the biggest mistakes of my life. It wasn't his rejection of me that I found painful it was the lying, gaslighting and disrespect he put me through last year.
Full story here - https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-he-has-permanently-messed-up-my-head.172481/

I hate myself for all the times I felt so sorry for him spending Christmas all by himself in his house with NO family, believing he was really nice guy and failing to see the signs he is a dishonest and fake man who plays the "nice guy", not even his teeth are real. I hate myself for trying to find the truth out about him because I wanted to know why he stopped giving me the attention he used to give me. In my subtle and successful covert investigation into him I got him to slip up and reveal he is has been on and off with his girlfriend for over 20 years. He gets with other women including the employees once his relationship breaks down and dumps the women later once he gets back with his ex. This is the cycle he has been doing for over 20 years. The time he spent with me giving me all the attention in the world was because he was no longer together with his partner and saw me as a someone to pass the time with until he got back together with ex. He never told me about his relationship and kept stringing me on only when I did investigation it all came out.

During the investigation he told me a really bizarre story. He once told me the story about an ex employee he had a relationship with. I couldn't understand why he was telling me this story.

He told me the woman employee he had a relationship with "disappeared one day". The woman was from Colombia. He said he thinks "her visa expired". I always thought the visa story was bullshit because i felt something was missing from the story. I now realise he told me that story to show me what he is capable of doing to me. I should have realised by then he worked out I was on to him.

I was ready to move on and he knew that then he began sabotaging me at work. Telling lies about me to our boss who was also his friend and assited by someone i thought was my friend. I will never forget the day in the office where he looked at me as if I was nothing and just a stranger. I really loved and cared about him. He sat outside the office room where my boss was insulting and raising his voice at me. Out of all the empty office rooms my boss chose that room right outside where he was sitting listening to everything. Arsehole was pretending to work on his phone. He didn't bring his laptop.

I am studying for a law masters degree at one of the UK top universities and what pains me till this day was he got everything he wanted. Me gone from the workplace and reunited back with the women he loves so much.
 
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