nothing is real so what’s the point

[Decayed]

nothing is real not me, not the world. the only place that ever feels real is my room but i'm not allowed to go back there cause i'm on suicide watch. so what's the point? if i'm not real if nothing is then surely nothing will happen if i do end it all. i hear a voice telling me to cut too see blood to know if i am human but i'm so scared none will come and i will be right that i'm not human that i'm a fake i'm so scared