nothing is enjoyable

[Tionally]

I don't feel much anymore. i don't have hopes, hobbies, I'm not excited. I don't wanna do stuff that requires effort and doing something (even playing games) doesn't give me any satisfaction. things I enjoyed doing are not enjoyable anymore. no matter what I do it feels pointless and I'm emotionless. I miss the time when It felt like I had purpose and I actually enjoyed doing things: meeting with friends, drawing or watching shows or anything

also I still have derealization and maybe it's even worse now idk.. no matter what I do I'm not happy

I also don't care about any consequence so I'm not good at doing things I have to do. I don't worry about future at this point because I'm not sure I even have one. I don't care about what happens. guess the future me will have to deal with problems. for now I'll just rot away and in the future I'll either become an even worse wreck or I'll ctb

 

[kawaiiphantom]

I feel exactly the same as you. Nothing seems enjoyable at all, nothing gives you quite the same emotions as before. It's bland and dull and boring. wanting desperately to have good memories again. I'm so sorry you have to go through this it can be a living hell sending you much love and support and I hope everything gets better

 

[thorsve]

I can relate to this so hard. Literally nothing is fun or enjoyable. I try so hard to get better but I never do. I hope your situation gets better and that you find some light in this life. Me personally, I just want to CTB...

 

[divinemistress36]

I feel the same way. My soul is so tired

 

[Old Friend]

Same. Can't read. Can't play video games. Can't watch TV or movies. Lonely but don't feel like seeing anyone at the same time. I've had dips before but this is probably the worst and I don't see myself coming back from it.

 

[dragonofenvy]

I miss when I was younger and I could find ways to whittle the days by even though things were still bad. At least I could make time go by faster. Now I see little reason to get out of bed because there isn't anything for me to do. The things I used to like aren't enjoyable, and everything else no matter how mundane is exhausting. Heck even gaming for a little bit takes a lot out of me and that's supposed to be fun and relaxing.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I feel exactly the same as you. Numbness has settled in..i don't enjoy doing the things i used to. I wish to ctb asap. But not able to find an accessible method considering i stay with family.

 

[tbroken]

I live in the same situation. I just have to find the right resource and proceed with ctb. I'm really unlucky, it did not have to go this way.