Venting Nothing ever gets better

[405taker]

Shit just keeps getting worse and worse, days go by so quickly yet so slowly, i feel numb and guilt-ridden. No matter how much i try it doesn't help so i stopped trying which makes it all worse. Funny innit. People keep saying that it'll get better, but really, when? Because i know it won't. This is how ive lived and will probably continue to live. I'm too much of a coward to attempt again, because what if i fail again? I'll have to face that guilt too. I've been praying for a form of quick aggressive cancer to take me. Or going to sleep and not waking up. Or a car crash or a plane crash or a bus crash or something anything to set me from my misery because obviously i can't do shit and the only things that actually matter are things ive no control in. I can't even talk to any of my friends because it'll worry them and then ill have to console them. I'm done. Fuck being alive. Fuck this head of mine.

 

[imnotsurewhy]

I think people say that on instict .they have to say something And its such a standard non offensive answer that its seems like the best thing to someone has it rough .i doubt its malintent more cluelessness

 

[KillingPain267]

I feel the same. Even though I'm drunk right now I wanna hang myself from my door frame, I've been sad for over 8 months now, but will probably fail the hanging.. so just no...

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Hasn't been my experience, either, in life, that things ever get better. Some people, seemingly, just have a black cloud above them wherever they go, whatever they do. For others it's all rainbows and butterflies. It's quite befuddling how this world works, huh?

 

[Darkover]

my experience from the age of 18 to 38 my life just gotten worse and worse the longer it went on
it's doesn't get any better just worse the longer it goes on

 

[waterworks]

What people mean is things can get better, not that they necessarily will get better. But in the moment, when they feel they are about lose someone they care for, they speak in absolutes. Rather than admit they don't know. But things can get better. Possibility is what a lot of people are living for; it's gambling with life, and boy, so many people are hooked in this cosmic lottery. The truth is everything, according to us mere humans, is a matter of cosmic randomness (even though if you were intelligent enough, you wouldn't have to rely on chance as much as someone less intelligent). So the best strategy to living, is make yourself as less of a variable as possible. In short, do everything you can, and stay consistent and be the constant, so given enough time, the possibility of an event occurring increases. You can use conditional probabilistic math to show this, but it's common sense.

But then do you really want to base your life on chance? Do you want to delude yourself into thinking there's great things to come, when you don't know? Human life is delusion.

 

[divinemistress36]

The truth is that it gets better for some people and others it doesnt

 

[Trav1989]

Shit just keeps getting worse and worse, days go by so quickly yet so slowly, i feel numb and guilt-ridden. No matter how much i try it doesn't help so i stopped trying which makes it all worse. Funny innit. People keep saying that it'll get better, but really, when? Because i know it won't. This is how ive lived and will probably continue to live. I'm too much of a coward to attempt again, because what if i fail again? I'll have to face that guilt too. I've been praying for a form of quick aggressive cancer to take me. Or going to sleep and not waking up. Or a car crash or a plane crash or a bus crash or something anything to set me from my misery because obviously i can't do shit and the only things that actually matter are things ive no control in. I can't even talk to any of my friends because it'll worry them and then ill have to console them. I'm done. Fuck being alive. Fuck this head of mine.

I've been told that life gets better since I was a teenager, I'm nearly 35 years-old and can safely say it doesn't. If anything life just gets progressively worse and I can't understand how people live until the age of 40+ honestly, i guess by instinct?

Life is just a massive joke being played on all of us and some people lack the awareness to realize it.

 

[divinemistress36]

I've been told that life gets better since I was a teenager, I'm nearly 35 years-old and can safely say it doesn't. If anything life just gets progressively worse and I can't understand how people live until the age of 40+ honestly, i guess by instinct?

Life is just a massive joke being played on all of us and some people lack the awareness to realize it.

Im 36 I agree

 

[RemainingDubious]

Im 36 I agree

Same

 

[pinkpetal]

i sincerely wish it could get better but years of trauma has trained my brain to prepare for the worst. it's damaged beyond repair. nobody can convince it, not even me. this year was the worst year of my life. i pray everyday to die in my sleep but god wants me to suffer a bit more .

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It gets worse by age 50 the pains start, then 60 even worse for most , 70 even worse, 80 , 90 i don't know for who it gets better to be a decaying demented rack of pain ....

it gets worse because aging is decay. brain cells die dementia sets in , chronic pain etc.

i worked in a nursing home. old age is an unimaginable hell for anyone that is below 50 unfathomable abomination beyond words . this is hidden to keep people in the prison fooled so they don't demand for there to be guaranteed ways to escape life, for easily obtainable nembutal without prescription or other guaranteed ways out of this evil prison world and evil life.

 

[Hotsackage]

I hate that phrase, creates false hope

 

[BlendedHeart]

Don't know where I hear or read this or the full context, but someone said "If my first 32 years of life were bad, what is the guarantee of the rest being better?", and I completely agree.

Don't care if might be a small chance of it. I don't want to be here to know it. Miss me with that "it gets better" bull.

 

[popcornheart]

It truly is such an exhausting platitude to insist "it'll get better". Although, some people find enough of a semblance of joy in their lives that it does appear, for them, that there is hope in the day-to-day...or, I suppose that, from my own personal experience.

I took care of my grandparents as they got older. My grandfather more than my grandmother, admittedly. His cancer took him out within a year of diagnosis but I often thought about what type of situation he would have been in if I wasn't around. I was essentially the only person there to help. It was such a fractured system... and I know now, with nearly 100% certainty, that I will be completely alone in my old age (should I make it that long). The thought of wasting away, heavily drugged, at some state facility... or worse, on the streets... it just further illustrates how pointless everything truly is in this life. Maybe not for everyone, but definitely for more of us than society likes to admit.