I think sometimes we don't realise we need help, or we don't feel like we can be helped. It feels like we know the answer. Why do we need help if we know the answer?
Yet we ask the question anyway. We might phrase it differently but we ask - either here or to our friends/relatives. I know I did when I posted on here - mine might read like a story but I was asking for help, if I'm honest with myself.
I think the fact that we say something, anything (whether it's a question, a statement or, as in my case, as story) it means we want help. I think it means we don't really like our own answers. Asking for help is hard and so we don't always do it in direct and obvious ways. Besides, if you don't know what it is that you want... how can you ask the question? How can you be helped if you don't know what help you need? All you have is this.... feeling.
Getting help is hard. It's hard to ask. It's hard to know what to ask. It's even harder to acknowledge to yourself that you even want help. Acknowledging that you want help is the first step, and that takes a lot of self honesty, it's tough. Then when you start, there can be knock backs. It can be hard to find the right help, sometimes it doesn't work for you and you need to start over (right therapist, right medication) It's hard work too. Nobody can give you answers, inject you with happiness and send you on your way. You need to look inside yourself, be prepared to be honest with yourself, be prepared to change even. People can only support and guide, it's you that does the hard work because, hopefully, it's you that wants to do it.
If you listen to yourself, to your own words, you can hear yourself. You can hear want you want and you can hear what you don't want. It takes honesty but that's when help starts. You take the first step by accepting that you need help.
Nobody is doomed. I know it can seem like it. And I know that, sure, some have it tough/tougher than others - but nobody is doomed.
