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[asoaringdove]

Hi, I'm soaringdove , I've been through a lot. My grandma passed when I was 11 almost 12, then my stepfather start to molest me and during that my best friend passed away. Then I came out about the abuse and I lost all my friends and my own mother didn't even believe me, not till he had cuffs around his wrist did she even THINK of me. I was destroyed. Then my distant father who was now my guardian started getting sick and got cancer. He died 3 years later when I was 15ish. Some things have gotten better. My mother and I have a good relationship. I have a loving boyfriend. But yet, I can't find it in me to keep going. I miss my dad. I miss who I was before the abuse. My father got my at me when I tried to CTB in middle school and it haunts me that he might be so mad at me.