Not even alcohol is helping me feel better

[lnlybnny]

I know about all the effects of it but I used to get at least a glimpse of contentment when drinking but yesterday I did it and I just felt sick. I puked a lot even though I didn't drink much. I didn't feel anything good and it didn't even distract me. Maybe I should spend some time without it.

The puking part gets me scared because I keep thinking what will happen when I drink SN. I don't want to be one of those people who puke violently. So scary.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Alc is never a solution but it can be a short term relief. Maybe you were just not in a very good condition yesterday.

 

[lnlybnny]

Alc is never a solution but it can be a short term relief. Maybe you were just not in a very good condition yesterday.

Yeah I believe I was in a darker place emotionally. The puking part gets me anxious too

 

[locked*n*loaded]

"The immediate effects of drinking alcohol can help you feel more relaxed, more confident, and less inhibited. However, as these short-term effects wear off, other effects begin to take hold. This includes feelings of anger, anxiety, depression, and other negative emotions."

SOURCE: https://www.verywellmind.com/is-alcohol-a-depressant-5191776

 

[KillingPain267]

Yeah, stay away from alcohol as a way to numb pain, depression and/or anxiety. It makes all worse. I binge drank a lot in periods, and it almost destroyed me and I stopped immediately one day after puking tiny pieces of blood and looking at chats realizing I had lost the memory of a whole week of events . Now I just crave it, but remind myself that the feeling of contentment or euphoria from drinking only lasts 40-60 minutes and then I cry, get depressed and/or angry while still drunk and destroying my organs. After sobering up, I feel more anxiety than normal, which is when the endless loop starts of wanting to drink even more. Also, I suffer from insomnia sometimes, and while drinking knocks me out eventually, it destroys sleep quality and when you stop it just worsens the insomnia (which in some cases may be permanent). It also kills your organs slowly, eventually giving you a very slow painful death, or worse, a coma first. Before the coma you may also get your brain and memory destroyed (Wernicke-Korsakoff disease, which is some of the most scary things I've read about). It's a stupid drug. Even cocaine and heroin are less harmful (look it up).

So when you realize that "not even alcohol is helping me feel better", just give it up before you get worse. There are better ways to feel better, coming from me who is diagnozed with severe depression (like, top score in tests and evaluations by multiple psychiatrists).

 

[lnlybnny]

"The immediate effects of drinking alcohol can help you feel more relaxed, more confident, and less inhibited. However, as these short-term effects wear off, other effects begin to take hold. This includes feelings of anger, anxiety, depression, and other negative emotions."

SOURCE: https://www.verywellmind.com/is-alcohol-a-depressant-5191776

I know but now I didn't even feel these good things

Yeah, stay away from alcohol as a way to numb pain, depression and/or anxiety. It makes all worse. I binge drank a lot in periods, and it almost destroyed me and I stopped immediately one day after puking tiny pieces of blood and looking at chats realizing I had lost the memory of a whole week of events . Now I just crave it, but remind myself that the feeling of contentment or euphoria from drinking only lasts 40-60 minutes and then I cry, get depressed and/or angry while still drunk and destroying my organs. After sobering up, I feel more anxiety than normal, which is when the endless loop starts of wanting to drink even more. Also, I suffer from insomnia sometimes, and while drinking knocks me out eventually, it destroys sleep quality and when you stop it just worsens the insomnia (which in some cases may be permanent). It also kills your organs slowly, eventually giving you a very slow painful death, or worse, a coma first. Before the coma you may also get your brain and memory destroyed (Wernicke-Korsakoff disease, which is some of the most scary things I've read about). It's a stupid drug. Even cocaine and heroin are less harmful (look it up).

So when you realize that "not even alcohol is helping me feel better", just give it up before you get worse. There are better ways to feel better, coming from me who is diagnozed with severe depression (like, top score in tests and evaluations by multiple psychiatrists).

I generally only drink on Saturdays. I managed to stop for some weeks but always come back. Even when I drink just one day a week I still feel awful afterwards. What are the other better ways to cope that helped you?

 

[KillingPain267]

I generally only drink on Saturdays. I managed to stop for some weeks but always come back. Even when I drink just one day a week I still feel awful afterwards. What are the other better ways to cope that helped you?

For me, it is a combination of various things that helps me cope. 1. I replaced drinking with eating candy and watching movies, 2. started a plant based whole food diet (besides the evening candy) and 3. started taking a new antidepressive medication regularly as prescribed. But tbh part of my way to cope is that I look forward to ctb eventually soon once these other copes cease functioning.

 

[Timothy7dff]

Anyone old enough to remember the commercials "It's Miller Time"?

.....when the deep state has taken all your money
.....when you're too sick to get out of bed.
.....when you can no longer afford to live.

......It's Miller time!

"Every man has his breaking point" - Red