Not becoming anybody

[OnMyLast Legs]

I can't stand it. When you're a kid you can tell yourself that accomplished and respected people are just older than you. You haven't become yourself yet. But when you're older you have to admit they're just better. I can't stand being bad. That's my #1 reason to ctb. Just failing to do anything with my life. Shame and envy consume me. I can't believe I didn't become someone.

 

[dayhell]

I feel the same way, just wasting away. I will never accomplish anything meaningful and it hurts. Not everyone is meant to be someone and I'm too exhausted and miserable to make even a small effort. I hope you will somehow find your way.

 

[badatparties]

I have no desire to meaningfully contribute to this garbage dump of a world anyway, so i don't really care that i didn't become a successful inmate in the prison. I just want out of the prison.

 

[dayhell]

I have no desire to meaningfully contribute to this garbage dump of a world anyway, so i don't really care that i didn't become a successful inmate in the prison. I just want out of the prison.

That's a good way to look at it. I like it.

 

[Unlucky777]

I have no desire to meaningfully contribute to this garbage dump of a world anyway, so i don't really care that i didn't become a successful inmate in the prison. I just want out of the prison.

Let's plot a prison escape?

I'll talk to the guards and manipulate them into sneaking stuff in for us

 

[fkyou]

Same..

 

[Exhausted546]

I can't stand it. When you're a kid you can tell yourself that accomplished and respected people are just older than you. You haven't become yourself yet. But when you're older you have to admit they're just better. I can't stand being bad. That's my #1 reason to ctb. Just failing to do anything with my life. Shame and envy consume me. I can't believe I didn't become someone.

I was in medshool a decade ago before traumatic events and abuse broke me & forced me to drop out. I've never been the same again. I changed so much I can't recognize myself. There's nothing I can do about it but to resign myself to living a mediocre life as a meager broken shadow of my former self.

Took me so many years to recover and be able to go back to uni and study normally again. I chose software engineering. The job market is going to hell rn.

I had a lot of potential, id want a redo of i could,I'd desperately avoid the events that turned me into the mess I am.

 

[kuroshimi]

Can relate in some way. I think, I cannot fulfill my potential, since my childhood was completely destroyed and (my) future is uncertain. Perhaps everything is still ahead, but still can't do anything in my life and I can't stand it as well.