Venting Not again ...

[SterileMoth]

I haven't posted on here in almost 5 months. I actually almost forgot about it, I mean it lingered enough in mind but not heavily, not ... not heavily.
But the past week or so they've been crawling back into my mind. I tried to ignore it and deny it and be happy but I'm not, I'm thinking about dying again. I don't want to be here, I feel stuck. I know it's stupid, look at everyone in worse situations thriving n shit. I'm a piss baby. I'd be better off a brief stain on the world anyway.
I think ... I am terribly tempted to OD now if I am honest. I'm at my partner's new place, with their new roommates, because they invited me to stay the night. I'd ruin it. I already ruin everything, so yanno ... It's like, one final fuck up? Not that big of a deal right.
Whatever.
It's fine.
I'm fine :)
I am so tired of dealing with this fucking brain.
Why can't I just be fucking normal why can't I just be FUCKING NORMAL.

 

[SweetDreams500]

I wish I was normal too. It sucks to be divergent.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I'll just say you're not alone. Sorry you are feeling this way. Genuinely wish you didn't.

 

[MyrSS]

Normalcy these days seems like people being led by hedonism.

Not something I'd envy myself, but maybe if I had a choice to forget everything and be blue-pilled maybe I'd take it. I don't really know.

Also don't feel guilty, it's really not your fault. You're not a piss baby

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I wish I was normal too. It sucks to be divergent.

We are simply "built different".

 

[SweetDreams500]

We are simply "built different".

I'm built like a morbidly obese walrus with down syndrome and autism

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I'm built like a morbidly obese walrus with down syndrome and autism

I'm built like someone that is going to fuck up the night-night and end up a vegetable.

 

[Makko]

I'm built like someone that is going to fuck up the night-night and end up a vegetable.

That's absolutely nutritious.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

That's absolutely nutritious.

Based cannibalism.