fuckin' hell, that and your whole message. you get my view. "a spirit trapped in flesh trying to return to source" is basically what i am. as henry, this soul, is my third reincarnation, just this time, not like EteleD, a vessel i'd created, now flesh. god, being EteleD was hell, but i'd do ANYTHING to go back to it.
I feel like being a human being is a main reason why I'm suicidal. If I were a cat, dog, or dolphin instead I wouldn't suffer this much. The worst thing is that I don't even feel like a human, ever since I was little I always wanted to be a cat.
truly agreed. coming from the fucking VOID.
perhaps research clinical zoanthropy and therianthropy? i honestly feel like you're a cat therian.
EXACTLY. a flesh vessel was bad enough, but why make it so weak, so uncomfortable? even as the void, the core of me is the *literal* matter of dark, any vessel i choose has to be male. stuck here, so uncomfortable, with other fleshy people at eachothers throats, it's practically shameful and headache inducing..
ah, eldritch entity, cool !! i'm a void at core, or physically some 'divine' entity, a mix of wings and eyes.. if we split the void into light or dark, dark is just the dark, but light is an oddly biblical-esque entity, basically. but agreed on the screeching as communication. i remember some form of speaking in- i dunno, tongues? not too stereotypical, it was a mix of that and latin. ah, if only being ourselves was socially acceptable. but alas, mortals and their ENDLESS RULES AND MORALS.
exactly the reason i'm on the verge of clawing myself out of this thing, or straight up killing myself and letting my true void self seep out of the wounds because i keep picking at my damn nails.
THAT LAST IMAGE IS SO REAL. the religious trauma makes it funnier LMAOO
yep, chances are, you're someone like me. you're not the only one.
you're honestly not the only one. misanthropy doesn't mix well, and honestly, what you said. i wanna seep out of this vessel and show everyone what being stuck in ME, the void, is like. bit weird to explain, ykwim? like after thoughts of death, some people call it the void.
I feel more like an alien and like I'm on the wrong planet. I don't feel like an actual cat, I just wish I could be one because I hate being a human.
still could be, but i won't decide for you. i get how it feels.
oh! i'm a belgian malinois weredog who's a sys host too! the species dysphoria part is REAL. mostly due to autism (and clinical lycanthropy) i never really felt human as a pup. surprise surprise, i never was. but yeah, it was an absolute blur, given eteled split real early in our life and he's a mii. we're nonhuman-heavy as well. it's weird. lots of creatures, humanoids, etc.
Ughhh totally get the autism thing, we have been diagnosed since a child and it's interesting how it can make you feel non-human. I split an alter to hold those feelings early on, so I didn't feel it as much, thankfully.
autism's been heavy early on but i believe we may have an alter like that, thinking back on it?? either that or it's kinda easy to deal with lmao. since i was a pup, autisms made me feel all creature like. both clinical lycanthropy and the tism has made me do THE most weredog things. i've even picked up growling as a stim.. haha
