So many reasons too many to list, I'll give you a few though:
- Super depressed and exhausted, but not ready college. How the fuck am I supposed to get good grades when I can't function? My academics/grades are literally the only good/worthy thing about me.
- I'm also tired of spending hours thinking about dying and ending my life. I almost feel like it's my destiny for the lack of a better word.
- And lastly to prevent myself from hurting others, I'm afraid of being an evil and horrible person, so why shouldn't I speed up the process?