AnonymousL
Specialist
- Apr 5, 2023
- 372
Everyone thinks i'm doing better, that i'm in a better place.
I was, but i'm falling back down and I am afraid to tell anyone. I dont want to dissapoint my boyfriend. He's so happy that I am doing better.
He's saying I can look for a job soon and that I will earn more money and then we can do so much more fun things together. But I cant.
I am thinking about dying everyday. I am dissapointed when I wake up. I feel an extreme guilt towards everyone around me.
I AM NOT DOING OKAY!!
I wanna scream it, I wanna shout it of rooftops but I am afraid..
My dad said that its time to get better since nobody wants to stay with someone that is mentally ill. That my boyfriend will leave me.
What if i never get better?
I was, but i'm falling back down and I am afraid to tell anyone. I dont want to dissapoint my boyfriend. He's so happy that I am doing better.
He's saying I can look for a job soon and that I will earn more money and then we can do so much more fun things together. But I cant.
I am thinking about dying everyday. I am dissapointed when I wake up. I feel an extreme guilt towards everyone around me.
I AM NOT DOING OKAY!!
I wanna scream it, I wanna shout it of rooftops but I am afraid..
My dad said that its time to get better since nobody wants to stay with someone that is mentally ill. That my boyfriend will leave me.
What if i never get better?