i vibe w ur post a lot i literally came back from my counsellor app and i feel like i achieved nothing LMAO. so i know how u feel. Especially now that my partner tossed me and we had plans for me to stay at their dorm for some time nd stuff but yea no they went from telling me that they love me dont wanna lose me and that theyre hpapy to have me and week after just tossed me and faked some weird suicide attempt. from our mutual friend i found out they were hanging out w some girl and kissed nd stuff and when i brought it up their excuse was that they wanted to experience more stuff before dying even tho they claimed often that they're asexual okay cope. Thanks to em i got put in psych ward twice ever since we broke up. SOOO yea, i lost a partner and best friend and its even more sad cuz we were so alike and understood each other and now i just dont really have anyone who gets this stuff at all. I mean some online friends pretend they sort of care or get it but na they dont. Irl i dont even bother talking to friends they would tell me to seek therapy or something cause it works for em or maybe would tell my granny and she wouldnt even bother talking to me but instead would simply call emergency so they could ward me again. fr its just really hard to find someone who gets u fully i went through a ton of people ever since my ex tossed me and nothing really feels the same. I hope venting on this site will help u a lil at least cause yea i personally get it and its shitty that things are like that. Im sending u virtual hugs tho :>
ty for the virtual hugs, also im really sorry about your situation. I lost one of my really close friends a couple years ago because they decided that keeping up with lies was more important than staying friends with me (They were a pathological liar for context). They were someone I really cared about, and would spend hours of my days on calls with. But over the years ive learned that im better off without them. I hope you find someone you can relate to, and hopefully in the future you'll be able to look back and see that toxic people like that really aren't worth your time. Idk if this helped, but I hope it does. :)
That's so sad. I guess you are young and haven't chosen the therapist yourself. I did and can say anything. I am in my 40s and in the UK. It seems even more messed up in America than here with forced psychiatric care. I think here it's because they don't want to spend the resources so you get a bit more leeway to be honest about feeling suicidal
I'm pretty sure a therapist is obliged to keep your info confidential and not share anything with parents - unless you bring up self harm/suicide I guess. I wonder if saying I don't enjoy living, I don't enjoy life, I feel severely depressed is a start. Not one part of that says I'm going to commit suicide.
I never realised why I used to get low when I was young. When I found a great counsellor it all made sense and that helped me. It's the same one I still talk to sometimes. What sadly has brought me here are severe health issues so no helping that unfortunately
I hope you get to talk openly here about everything you need to.
Yeah, I live in America, and if I bring up anything about wanting to harm myself/others they're legally obligated to tell my parents about it. I wouldn't have an issue with that if my parents weren't the way they are. They don't understand anything about mental health, and the few times ive tried to tell them about how I feel they simply brush it off, or tell me im overexaggerating. My fear is that they'll panic, not knowing what to do, and force me to seek psychiatric help.
