DepressedAngel
Life is exhausting
- Dec 4, 2019
- 146
I know logically people love me, but it feels like everyone who completely knows me leaves me. Is there something wrong with me? I don't know what else to say. I've been trying to meet new people because my boyfriend broke up with me in November, but I can't find anyone, and it's still hard to think about being with anyone else. I've made out with a few people, but I can't stop thinking about him. I miss him so much and he doesn't give a shit about me it's so hard. I love my friends, but I wasn't as close to them as I was to my boyfriend (he was my best friend too) and it's too hard to talk about my problems with them. I feel like they'll judge me or maybe leave me too, I don't know. I have no idea what I'm saying. I think I've decided to stay on this site in the recovery section, because there are still days like this when knowing that people will read my rambling thoughts helps. I'm so sorry guys, I love all of you. And I know this really doesn't matter in the long run, trust me. It's just hard right now. I'm sorry. I hope you guys have a good day/night.