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- Nov 15, 2018
- 37
They only see the outside. They think they do. But no one knows me.
No one understands me.
I tried so hard but at the end of the day the system wins. I try to explain myself to them but all it takes is one little tug from the system and they forget me.
I am scared of being alone.
I am scared of having no hope and losing everyone.
I am scared of going to Hell.
But I am already completely alone, in hell, with no hope and I've already lost everyone since I never truly had anyone to begin with.
So what is there to be afraid of? I'm already living it.
I'm done running away.
Lying to myself.
I'm going to be completely alone and suffer forever.
I'll bite the bullet on having my world and everything burn.
I'll take it. I'll take the worst thing imaginable.
I want to be free. I want my suffering to mean something. I want to suffer for myself and not for the benefit of greedy human scum.
No one understands me.
I tried so hard but at the end of the day the system wins. I try to explain myself to them but all it takes is one little tug from the system and they forget me.
I am scared of being alone.
I am scared of having no hope and losing everyone.
I am scared of going to Hell.
But I am already completely alone, in hell, with no hope and I've already lost everyone since I never truly had anyone to begin with.
So what is there to be afraid of? I'm already living it.
I'm done running away.
Lying to myself.
I'm going to be completely alone and suffer forever.
I'll bite the bullet on having my world and everything burn.
I'll take it. I'll take the worst thing imaginable.
I want to be free. I want my suffering to mean something. I want to suffer for myself and not for the benefit of greedy human scum.