Venting no one has ever liked me

[nails]

maybe not (real) because i'm sure people have thought of me positively, but that's not what i mean.

also sorry i think i've been spamming the forum a bit

i cannot come to terms with the fact that i am just so unlikable. no one stays after getting to knoe me deeply, i'm just revolting. people will distance themselves and ignore me while swearing up that they still see me as a friend and that they like me or whatever. so many people have done this to me and i'm so tired of it. it's not real, i'd prefer honesty, jusy trll me that you stopped caring or stopped liking me. i can only keep people around if i avoid getting close to them, and even that doesn't work out sometimes. i get so embarrassed when i think of the things i've done and the amount of money and time i spent trying to do something positive for my friends. it doesn't matter what i do, i could spend a million dollars on someone and be there for them every second of every day; it doesn't make me any less repulsive, i'm still worthless despite it all. it's stupid to expect anything to be reciprocated, and i don't think i've ever expected even exchanges—it just stings really bad. my family doesn't even seem to genuinely like me. i'm tolerated, that's all. they will avoid speaking to me unless they have something that they eant to yap about and no one else is around. i'll always just sit there and listen because it's all the human interaction i can get.
i can't even bring myself to hate anyone anymore. it's my fault and my problem, my lackluster presence isn't anyone else's fault. i was never good enough, i will never be good enough. my personality snd my very being is just so repulsive. i'd rather be despised, but i'm just not even a thought in anyone's head. i'm just someone to avoid, that's the worst. i don't cross anyone's mind, i'm not memorable or special.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

I'm so sorry this sounds horrible and i can relate i also never really had anyone liking me. Then after i was completely devastated I reflected and realized the reasons but in the end it doesn't really matter because I'll ctb anyway. I will leave the world without any great moments but in your case maybe also reflect learn what could be the reason and work on it.

People mostly like someone when that person is friendly, has empathy, is there.
I'd say the main principle of true friendship and maybe also from romantic relationships is: being there for each other, having empathy, supporting each other, showing understanding for the issues the other person has etc. :)

 

[katara]

Why do u think ppl don't like u? Has anyone ever given u any hints before?

 

[darksouls]

people have always exploited me, I only had fake friends, being liked has nothing to do with that

 

[nails]

Why do u think ppl don't like u? Has anyone ever given u any hints before?

i exhaust people, i think that's the main thing. aside from that, i'm just not interesting and my personality kinda sucks.
i've tried to fix these things and even hide them, but it all ends the same.

 

[Macedonian1987]

People have disliked me every since my earliest memories, from the age of me being just 4-5 years old. They hate me because I talk and act differently. I'm not a bad person, I'm just different because of my Asperger's. People dislike me, but I don't hate myself. I don't hate myself because I'm not like most people, cruel, selfish, fake and trying to exploit someone for my personal gain. I'm honest and real with anyone. I lie ONLY when I absolutely need to.

Here is a message I can give to all who suffer from any form of autism and are disliked by everyone: don't hate yourself because of this. You are not a bad person, you are just... different. That doesn't make you a bad person.