Venting No one can truly ever love me

[Upon a hanging Body]

I don't think love was ever meant for me. I've tried, over and over, to let people in and believe their words when they say they care, when they promise they won't leave. But in the end, it's always the same. They grow tired of me, they get overwhelmed, and I'm left alone again. I've reached a point where I don't even believe in "forever" anymore, not for me. Every connection feels temporary, every smile feels borrowed, and every promise feels like a lie waiting to collapse.

I don't blame anyone for leaving... i know I'm not easy to stay with...but it breaks me every time. It's like there's something inside me that drives people away, something I can't fix no matter how hard I try. And it hurts to admit that maybe I was never meant to be loved the way I need. I'm so tired of holding on to hope that only ends up killing me a little more each time. Maybe I was meant to be alone, and maybe that's all there will ever be.

 

[k1m]

You will grow, other people will grow. I have a friend who always felt like this (he was diagnosed with BPD). He's still working through it with his partner. Maybe you will find someone soon, maybe you won't, but you will get better at this and have more fulfilling relationships with ppl. It's not about finding someone else who can fix you, it's about being happy enough with yourself that some of that happiness leaks out to other people. It's definitely doable.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

You will grow, other people will grow. I have a friend who always felt like this (he was diagnosed with BPD). He's still working through it with his partner. Maybe you will find someone soon, maybe you won't, but you will get better at this and have more fulfilling relationships with ppl. It's not about finding someone else who can fix you, it's about being happy enough with yourself that some of that happiness leaks out to other people. It's definitely doable.

I have bpd too. And I also have a bunch of other things wrong with me... my si is so intense that it pushes people away ... or they think I'm manipulative... I just want to die ... I don't want life .