promapicide
Member
- Jun 9, 2022
- 13
I believe being suicidal and planning to carry it out is one of the loneliest feelings in the world. I knew what it was like to have others there for me, trying to prevent myself from dying even though they would unknowingly promote it. But when you want to die no one is there for you. No one to tell you it's okay you're going to die. No one to tell you how to do it. No one to vent to about how hard it is to go through with it. It's a secret you hide from everyone. I felt like I was the only person on earth who felt this way, being crushed down by everyone else with cruel beliefs that I should be forced into a cruel life neither I or them ever wanted to live in the first place. I feel understood here, others know what it means to struggle and genuinely want the best even if it means loss because they don't deny it's true. Im so happy I found this site because for once I don't feel alone in this struggle. I know so many suicidal people but I don't relate to them, not like how I relate to you and feel respected. It almost feels like I won't die alone.