No longer trust therapists

[greencoat111]

I am currently attending a suicide crisis centre and have been fighting hard to try to stay strong and not ctb. The holidays were a very difficult time. I felt really isolated even though I had people around me. I decided to be honest and tell the therapist I was assigned how suicidal I've been feeling and she called my next of kin who are 2 family members. Even though I realise she had to do this because its in the confidentiality clause of all therapists, it made me feel totally helpless and like I can no longer trust her. I was previously in a psych ward and had a horrific experience there, which I explained but this still didn't register with her. I lost faith in therapy a long time ago but feel like I'm just going through the motions in going there.

I'm trying so hard to remain positive and hopeful about a future I can't seem to see at the moment, but I've realised I no longer feel comfortable confiding in anyone about the fact that I'm suicidal.

 

[SinisterKid]

Then its a good job you found this place. You can tell us all about it anytime you damned well please and no one will judge you, shove platitudes down your throat or call someone to tell them how crazy you are because you are suicidal.

Welcome to SS.

 

[greencoat111]

Then its a good job you found this place. You can tell us all about it anytime you damned well please and no one will judge you, shove platitudes down your throat or call someone to tell them how crazy you are because you are suicidal.

Welcome to SS.

Thank you so much for your kind response, it means a lot

 

[Abood95]

No amount of therapists and drugs will help you if you are a failure.

 

[HereToday]

Sorry to hear of your experience. I lost faith in psychiatrists when the one I saw in the hospital after an attempt shouted at me for having the nerve to hate my abusive parents, and lectured me on how my parents gave me life so they're in charge. I'm a grown adult by the way, not even a minor. The only person in charge of me is myself. What a psycho

 

[Jean4]

We are here for you and we understand. If you want to talk, feel free to PM me.

 

[134340]

I want to be completely honest with my therapist too, she's the best one I've ever had and I want her to know the truth, but it's her job to stop me. It's hard when you know she had to do it, but you really wish she wouldn't have because you just wanted to confide in someone. That being said, no judgment here. Welcome to the community, many people are willing to chat if you ever need anything (including me).

 

[Jean4]

I want to be completely honest with my therapist too, she's the best one I've ever had and I want her to know the truth, but it's her job to stop me. It's hard when you know she had to do it, but you really wish she wouldn't have because you just wanted to confide in someone. That being said, no judgment here. Welcome to the community, many people are willing to chat if you ever need anything (including me).

You are in the USA. May I suggest you look for a therapist at Compassion and Choices or some other similar organization if you want to be honest? I am saying it as a therapist who used to work there.

 

[Final Escape]

No amount of therapists and drugs will help you if you are a failure.

Lol! Right

 

[Jean4]

No amount of therapists and drugs will help you if you are a failure.

I disagree. Feel free to read my post.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ptsd-hallucinations-ctb.29226/

 

[Final Escape]

Sorry to hear of your experience. I lost faith in psychiatrists when the one I saw in the hospital after an attempt shouted at me for having the nerve to hate my abusive parents, and lectured me on how my parents gave me life so they're in charge. I'm a grown adult by the way, not even a minor. The only person in charge of me is myself. What a psycho

Wow! Yea those are the bad ones that blame u and don't give any of the blame to neglecting or abusing parents. Today's parents even my mom want the benefits of having children without the responsibility to bring them up right. I can sort of understand that some parents don't have the time to parent or the money but if that's the case u probably should have given up for adoption or aborted.

 

[greencoat111]

No amount of therapists and drugs will help you if you are a failure.

I don't like labelling myself as a failure, kinda feel bad enough about my life

 

[134340]

You are in the USA. May I suggest you look for a therapist at Compassion and Choices or some other similar organization if you want to be honest? I am saying it as a therapist who used to work there.

I've actually never heard of Compassion and Choices, but I'll be looking into it after your suggestion. Thank you

 

[Jean4]

I've actually never heard of Compassion and Choices, but I'll be looking into it after your suggestion. Thank you

Here you go

Compassion & Choices | End-of-Life Resources

Compassion & Choices improves care, expands options and empowers everyone to chart their end-of-life journey.

compassionandchoices.org

 

[Abood95]

I disagree. Feel free to read my post.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ptsd-hallucinations-ctb.29226/

I'm speaking so far from my experience. Some medications have helped a little but were not enough to make me a normal person accepted by others. My situation seems impossible.
In your case, it could have helped you with the PTSD and Hallucinations. However, there's no solution to social rejection.

 

[Jean4]

I'm speaking so far from my experience. Some medications have helped a little but were not enough to make me a normal person accepted by others. My situation seems impossible.

Honestly I have been a LCSW-R since the 80's. I have never seen a hopeless psychiatric case of an individual who resided in the mainstream. Hopeless cases I found are locked away for the rest of their lives. ;)

 

[DoNotLet2]

Feel free to dm if you need to talk to someone.
Well. Can I say me too? I also had that bad experience with therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist.
This place is nice because we can empathize better than psych- as we know how it feels like not to be able to go on even if we have way different experiences..

 

[heheb27595]

They can call the cops on you,

or

they are doc "feel good".

 

[Moonicide]

Hey, love. I'm proud of you for trying your best to hang in there and fight this battle. You're trying so hard and that's something to be acknowledged. I am also so sorry you've had bad experiences with psych wards. An old friend of mine had been inpatient 3 times, and the last one was very traumatic for them. So I can't blame you for feeling the way you do. I've fought with myself so hard along with my care team to not go inpatient, as I know it could cause more harm than good... As for your therapist, it sucks knowing due to recent events, you can't be completely honest with her. That goes for most therapists, to be honest. In the end, like you said, they are just doing their job... But they also don't know the amount of damage and trust issues they are causing in the process. Every individual is different, which means everyone requires different care and therapy. They really need to work on that... I wish therapy could be more personalized and customizable to suit our needs. I can't blame you for losing faith in the system, it's quite a dysfunctional and corrupt one. Just know we are here for you, we're listening, and we are here to support you during this difficult in your life. You can always open up to us when you feel alone in this battle. My heart goes out to you.

Sending you all of my love and support.

 

[jake3d]

Holidaya are always stressful times. Don't be too hard on yourself.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

i've had two therapists, and they didnt do much for me because a lot of my issues stem from physical pain, which they obviously cant change. aside from that, however, the first therapist i had was just really condescending and i had difficulty opening up to him, and the second one was better, but it'd be the same conversation every week and we'd just be talking in circles bc it was obvious there was no good solution to my problems. i just stopped going once i came to terms with my fate. nothing but a miracle can save me at this point.