No idea what I should put on my suicide note

[Mooshi]

I've tried so so so many times to figure out and write a suicide note that accurately describes what I went though during my life and the things I felt, and my reasoning for ctb. But it seems like no matter what, I'm never able to fully put everything I felt down on a piece of paper. I'm never able to fully put to justice everything I went through in this life on a piece of paper.

I either have periods where I'm certain no one gives a shit about me, or there's periods where I know people care and are going to be heart broken and my suicide is going to destroy them.

So I don't want to write a note, but then I do, but I never know what to put down, or if people will even think what I went through was that bad? I don't even think it was that bad, compared to what other people have gone through. Many people in my family have gone through worser things than I have, and they are still here and breathing, so why tf should I ctb? They survived their traumas, why should I ctb? I mean, I really really want to ctb, but do I even have a right? I don't even think what I went though was that bad...

(sorry, what started from me wanting insight turned into a rant...)

 

[StateOfMind]

If you don't think it will make difference don't bother.
On the other hand it can be quite useful in case your ctb attempt fails and are left in a vegetative state.
Give instructions to not keep you alive etc.
You can also give instructions with what to do with the rest of your money / property in a last will.

 

[Mooshi]

I have a question, should I write my suicide letter on a actual piece of paper, or should I just keep it on my phone notes? I feel like writing it on a actual piece of paper is more personal and maybe more thoughtful, but I also really don't like writing, and it's much easier to just type my letter. My letter is also very long and putting everything down on paper is just a hassle to me. Does it really matter? What do other people think?

 

[Sunset Limited]

I don't even have energy to write a suicide note. But there must be something that proves that I love and care about those who care about me. After I CTB, they may feel ignored anyway. So I think I should have a satisfactory explanation of my CTB reasons and motivation. My mother, my sister and her son. This note should be a good explanation for them. Whatever we write, it will always be incomplete. It does not relieve a mother's pain. Maybe a lifetime will read that note every day and refresh her pain. It's scary to even think about these, but when the time comes I'll have to do it because I have to wake up from this nightmare.

 

[Ringo]

That's a question that essentially only you can answer based on your priorities. A suicide note represents the last message of a suicide so do not leave anything behind and say everything you have to say to those who you should.

Things outside the content of the letter as such are a matter of mere comfort or preferences too, if you do not mind the note to be fancy, just do it as it is most comfortable for you.

 

[All-Dead-Y]

I have a question, should I write my suicide letter on a actual piece of paper, or should I just keep it on my phone notes? I feel like writing it on a actual piece of paper is more personal and maybe more thoughtful, but I also really don't like writing, and it's much easier to just type my letter. My letter is also very long and putting everything down on paper is just a hassle to me. Does it really matter? What do other people think?

I'd put it on paper. Or at least keep a piece of paper that says "Suicide note is on my phone" or something. I'd feel kinda rude snooping through a dead person's phone. Or anyone's phone, for that matter