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eightyninedee
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- May 28, 2019
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So I've been lurking for a while, never posted.
Schizoaffective disorder. Back in work after 4 years in and out of hospital. Got sent home today over concerns for my welfare after a meeting to discuss my obviously declining mental health.
Tried to get help but In reality it's easier to throw someone in to hospital than help them, trying to avoid that.
Psychiatrists throw medication at you, no other support. GP tells you to go see the psychiatrist. Counsellors won't touch someone with this illness in my experience, even if you're paying. Even the suicide helpline don't care, not responding to text messages. Got turned away by two mental health charities.
Even tried to reach out on Twitter of all places- not one response. Tried to change my psychiatrist to a private provider as he doesn't care about me, that's a whole other story, got told there is a 5 month waiting list! Which is probably short these days in fairness. The community nurses never call you back and they only work 9-5 anyway;
I feel like I am a problem and a waste of resources. Not worth helping. So I've no choice really do I?
I feel like if I did kill my self it wouldn't be a loss, it would be a statement, showing how people with my illness fall through the cracks, lots of help for depression and anxiety which is so important of course but there is nothing for other illnesses.
Schizoaffective disorder. Back in work after 4 years in and out of hospital. Got sent home today over concerns for my welfare after a meeting to discuss my obviously declining mental health.
Tried to get help but In reality it's easier to throw someone in to hospital than help them, trying to avoid that.
Psychiatrists throw medication at you, no other support. GP tells you to go see the psychiatrist. Counsellors won't touch someone with this illness in my experience, even if you're paying. Even the suicide helpline don't care, not responding to text messages. Got turned away by two mental health charities.
Even tried to reach out on Twitter of all places- not one response. Tried to change my psychiatrist to a private provider as he doesn't care about me, that's a whole other story, got told there is a 5 month waiting list! Which is probably short these days in fairness. The community nurses never call you back and they only work 9-5 anyway;
I feel like I am a problem and a waste of resources. Not worth helping. So I've no choice really do I?
I feel like if I did kill my self it wouldn't be a loss, it would be a statement, showing how people with my illness fall through the cracks, lots of help for depression and anxiety which is so important of course but there is nothing for other illnesses.