MaybeMaybeKnot

MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
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I know this is stupid, but since it's confusing, I wanted to share my silly way to remember which one is correct.

Wrong: Sodium Nitrate (We hate nitrate)
Right: Sodium Nitrite (Nitrite for goodnight)

But also, nitRITE has "right" in its name.
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
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Damn straight I do. Joking aside, Nitrate is used more for.....other means. It can be used for CTB, but it's much harder to manage. SN is much simpler, to an extent. Methinks it all comes down to chemistry and the alchemical reactions it has, especially in our personal biomes.
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
339
Damn straight I do. Joking aside, Nitrate is used more for.....other means. It can be used for CTB, but it's much harder to manage. SN is much simpler, to an extent. Methinks it all comes down to chemistry and the alchemical reactions it has, especially in our personal biomes.
It's funny what a single oxygen atom can do.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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LoL you made my day
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

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Nov 30, 2019
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Yesyesyes and please DO your research, if the label says 'nitrate' and the seller claims that it's chile saltpeter then mate I'm sorry to tel you but that one isn't gonna make you ctb with 20/25 mg you'd need more.

Take this from someone who drank accidentally nitrate: it s u c k s
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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Yesyesyes and please DO your research, if the label says 'nitrate' and the seller claims that it's chile saltpeter then mate I'm sorry to tel you but that one isn't gonna make you ctb with 20/25 mg you'd need more.

Take this from someone who drank accidentally nitrate: it s u c k s
What were your symptoms?
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

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Nov 30, 2019
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What were your symptoms?
My stomach was burning a few minutes after I drank SN, I felt some discomfort around my ribs more like those heavy shitty period cramps and I felt some urges to vomit.
I didn't take any anti vomit stuff I just kept swallowing until the urge dissapeared and didn't vomit that day.

But I don't recommend to take the wrong one because it's so dissapointing
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
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My stomach was burning a few minutes after I drank SN, I felt some discomfort around my ribs more like those heavy shitty period cramps and I felt some urges to vomit.
I didn't take any anti vomit stuff I just kept swallowing until the urge dissapeared and didn't vomit that day.

But I don't recommend to take the wrong one because it's so dissapointing
At least you know you had the courage to drink it and overcame your SI.
Remember you kept dreaming about failed CTB attempts? That's quite impressive, your subconscious already knew you had the wrong stuff.
At least your lovely pets have you for a bit longer now though :hug:
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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My stomach was burning a few minutes after I drank SN, I felt some discomfort around my ribs more like those heavy shitty period cramps and I felt some urges to vomit.
I didn't take any anti vomit stuff I just kept swallowing until the urge dissapeared and didn't vomit that day.

But I don't recommend to take the wrong one because it's so dissapointing
Did you end at hospital or did you visit any doctor in the following days? I'm more afraid of failing than dying.
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
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At least you know you had the courage to drink it and overcame your SI.
Remember you kept dreaming about failed CTB attempts? That's quite impressive, your subconscious already knew you had the wrong stuff.
At least your lovely pets have you for a bit longer now though :hug:
Thank you for your kind words.
I wanted to look it up how long before the attempt I had the dream about a failed attempt but I deleted the conversation, (in case I succeeded and my loved ones would have read that conversation) anyway yes wow this makes sense.
In all honesty don't get me wrong: I love my pets but I can't stand the fact that I'm still alive.

Also can I just say how precious it is that you remembered these two things about me?
Did you end at hospital or did you visit any doctor in the following days? I'm more afraid of failing than dying.
No I didn't go anywhere I would have been brought to a crisie center otherwise, the similar period cramps (it literally felt like that lol) didn't even last longer than like 20 minutes or even shorter and the burning stomach lasted longer but hey I survived.
It could have been so much more worse.

There's not really too much pain if you fail.
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

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Sep 22, 2019
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@NeCkDeEp I know that feeling of disappointment, I failed with Fentanyl OD and Helium exit bag and both times I was so sure it would work.
Afterwards I was like "WTF, am I the bloody Indestructible Bionic Woman or something?" So I totally get how you're feeling right now :hug:
I wanted to look it up how long before the attempt I had the dream about a failed attempt but I deleted the conversation,
From memory I think it was about a week before? A good few days anyway
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

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Nov 30, 2019
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@NeCkDeEp I know that feeling of disappointment, I failed with Fentanyl OD and Helium exit bag and both times I was so sure it would work.
Afterwards I was like "WTF, am I the bloody Indestructible Bionic Woman or something?" So I totally get how you're feeling right now :hug:
I'm so sorry to hear about your failed attempts, I hope whether you decide to recover or to ctb that you will find the peace or the happiness you were looking for! :heart:
 
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