Nihilist CTB?

[amor.dor]

Do you think someone would kill themselves for feeling nothing? Like waking up on any given day and hanging themselves because they feel life is useless and meaningless? Without anguish, but feeling an emptiness and killing themselves without thinking much?
Sometimes I think about killing myself like that.
But other times I want to kill myself on impulse because I feel guilty for not being able to save my ex.
i don't even know what goes through my mind. I want to kill myself because life is meaningless and we always die. Other times, it's because of my issues, traumas, and anguish, like the suicide of the person I loved the most. Nothing seems clear.

 

[nowizard]

i think someone would kill themselves for whatever reason. it doesnt have to be rational, it doesnt have to make sense. at the end of the day someone that kills themselves is just seeking escape. whether that from finding no meaning in life, trauma, depression, in a manic state. all of them are valid. You dont have to settle on one specific reason to decide to end your life, you dont owe anybody explanations. after all this is all about making the decision yourself and for yourself

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

As nowizard already said, every reason is valid. You said yourself, that it is not clear for you. I think you should give yourself the time to figure out what you really want.