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BrainsAreFragile
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- Aug 16, 2020
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My life is going to be destroyed in seven months, and on the day it gets destroyed, I am going to drive my car into the next semi truck that drives down the opposite lane. I was thinking of killing a homeless man for a new identity, but I came to realize that I caused myself to be in this situation (due to mental illness and stupidity), and an innocent homeless man does not deserve to die. Besides, doing this fucked up shit just makes me feel depressed to begin with.
I am trying to get my hands on morphine to counteract my emptiness (I cannot feel any positivity anymore at all, and have a constant tension headache from the stress of my current predicament). It sucks knowing that you only have seven months left to live, but it is for the better that I die, anyways. Dying is better than living with a destroyed life where you'll never accomplish your dreams. Plus, I am pretty lonely and have no friends. My life is over.
Sorry to post this; I know nobody here cares about it. It is just nice to vent while I am still alive for the short amount I have left. I'll probably be on here until early May (early May is when I commit my suicide plan, and trust me. By that time, I will have complete confidence and hopelessness in life to drive into the semi truck).
I am trying to get my hands on morphine to counteract my emptiness (I cannot feel any positivity anymore at all, and have a constant tension headache from the stress of my current predicament). It sucks knowing that you only have seven months left to live, but it is for the better that I die, anyways. Dying is better than living with a destroyed life where you'll never accomplish your dreams. Plus, I am pretty lonely and have no friends. My life is over.
Sorry to post this; I know nobody here cares about it. It is just nice to vent while I am still alive for the short amount I have left. I'll probably be on here until early May (early May is when I commit my suicide plan, and trust me. By that time, I will have complete confidence and hopelessness in life to drive into the semi truck).