dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
- 1,298
I've got Cyanide and Nitrogen equipment, but I am scared of failure. Will look for N now.
I have invested in the Nitrogen tank , regulator and oven bags. But now im afraid of failure and only causing brain damage.
I have purchased Sodium Cyanide, 1Kg, but now I am afraid it will only cause great harm or damage.
So I am planning to go to little towns outside the city I live in and look for Nembutal, because in the city I have not been able to buy it.
How can I trust Nitrogen or Cyanide? Not possible, I can trust two bottle of N, I can do that.
im very sorry for the pain my death will cause to others, to my mother and bother, but I lived 20 years with enough pain, mental instability, fear , and progressive lost of my abilities, specially mental abilities
My memory sucks now, I can hardly earn a living nowadays and I am very close to loosing my job
I need to ctb, do you understand?
My mother has said, she respects my decision, she has heard me say I will look for a way out.
she knows how much I have suffered.
im so scared of failing at killing myself.
Tried the Nitrogen Tank once, and it failed , got disconnected and then ran out of gas. shitty story
I can not talk about this to anyone!! not in the office not during my day, This is the only place I've got to vent, thanks for reading me so far!!
I have invested in the Nitrogen tank , regulator and oven bags. But now im afraid of failure and only causing brain damage.
I have purchased Sodium Cyanide, 1Kg, but now I am afraid it will only cause great harm or damage.
So I am planning to go to little towns outside the city I live in and look for Nembutal, because in the city I have not been able to buy it.
How can I trust Nitrogen or Cyanide? Not possible, I can trust two bottle of N, I can do that.
im very sorry for the pain my death will cause to others, to my mother and bother, but I lived 20 years with enough pain, mental instability, fear , and progressive lost of my abilities, specially mental abilities
My memory sucks now, I can hardly earn a living nowadays and I am very close to loosing my job
I need to ctb, do you understand?
My mother has said, she respects my decision, she has heard me say I will look for a way out.
she knows how much I have suffered.
im so scared of failing at killing myself.
Tried the Nitrogen Tank once, and it failed , got disconnected and then ran out of gas. shitty story
I can not talk about this to anyone!! not in the office not during my day, This is the only place I've got to vent, thanks for reading me so far!!