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[Iwhohavenothing]

Hi finally bit the bullet and became a member of the site. I'm a 40 year old male living in north Wales. I've been visiting/browsing the site for a couple of months and finally joined. Reason I joined is because I thought I was alone in this horrible world we live in. I wouldn't class myself as being in a suicidal state of mind at the moment but I often vision myself hanging. For some reason I know that this will be my method that takes my life. I'm very good at hiding my emotions and many people don't know that inside I'm a mess. I use to cut my arms but that caused to much pain for my wife so now I eat to ease the suffering. I lost loads of weight before depression set in and now because I don't cut my weight has been all put back on

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is such a horrible world. But anyway best wishes.