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truthseeker
Student
- Sep 9, 2019
- 123
I've lurked for weeks and have done a fair amount reading and research on methods,techniques and supplies. No doubt I need to do much more.
I didn't want to start posting or replying until I had made a firm decision to go forth. That has happened. I have little confidence in my ability to do things correctly. I have multiple serious health issues and sometimes worry that something will go wrong as it's all so precariously balanced. I guess I'm the worrying type.
Above everything I've grown tired of what has become of my life. Disease, depression, age, no one that I could ever say a word to about what I'm planning. Utterly alone as always but now having made my decision, I will see it through.
I'm mostly looking at N, Ar. Possibly SN. Not sure SN can work for me, need to research more. I don't have a vehicle so I'm sorry to read that online ordering of N is no longer an option. I kick myself for waiting. I'll be feeling very nervous about going to a local supplier in person without pulling up in a vehicle. The best I could do is a taxi or just on foot.
I guess I'm venting here. Just want to leave in the most effective, least painful or frightening way.
I didn't want to start posting or replying until I had made a firm decision to go forth. That has happened. I have little confidence in my ability to do things correctly. I have multiple serious health issues and sometimes worry that something will go wrong as it's all so precariously balanced. I guess I'm the worrying type.
Above everything I've grown tired of what has become of my life. Disease, depression, age, no one that I could ever say a word to about what I'm planning. Utterly alone as always but now having made my decision, I will see it through.
I'm mostly looking at N, Ar. Possibly SN. Not sure SN can work for me, need to research more. I don't have a vehicle so I'm sorry to read that online ordering of N is no longer an option. I kick myself for waiting. I'll be feeling very nervous about going to a local supplier in person without pulling up in a vehicle. The best I could do is a taxi or just on foot.
I guess I'm venting here. Just want to leave in the most effective, least painful or frightening way.